A memory flares up inside me.
A familiar feeling spreads across me.
I close my eyes and replay the memory.
As I watch it, a new feeling enters. An
Old lost friend kind of feeling. That empty
Feeling I had so long ago comes back…
Back for a visit to give me that familiar
Dosage of grief. As it begins to spread,
A thought occurs to me. I'm more "happy"
Like this. Everything in life seems so much easier.
No worries cause everything's a worry. No problems
Because everything is a problem. Before I would
Try to hide these feelings and try to make them go away,
But…not today. Today I keep it to me close. I feed it more and more so it
Grows and grows. It starts to get overwhelming until it crashes.
That's when I crash too. When I come to again I can still feel the dry
Tears on my cheek and that empty feeling inside of me, bigger than ever,
Mocking me. And I walk invitingly into its arms
Waiting for the second battle to begin.