I dunno how long I'm back for, Summer just started, and I turn again to writing to aleviate my pain.
So, time to catch y'all up.
My therapy has been going along alright, I haven't wanted to kill myself in awhile. (a HUGE improvment in my book)
Meds are working out, I passed everything in school, one more year (^.^) so I should be all hunkey-dorey, right?
I don't know why either.
I guess part of it is that my best friend moved to the other side of the country.
Don't get me wrong, I love the dude, he moved for his best. (close to the college he wants, more likely to do well in school, his parents suck, etc.)
But with that and another one of my best friends moving away on the 7th of this July (Military), I'll be all alone and I don't know how to handle that.
I mean, seriously.
Me and my thoughts alone in the same room is NOT good for anyone involved.
I hope I'll be okay.
On the plus side, my faux-pas girlfriend is entering High School this year. (I hope)
That'd cure my depression real quick...
...but that's IF her Mom lets her enter public school (she knows I go there)...
...or IF she still feels for me like I do for her (If she moved on, I wouldn't blame her. Who would want a freak like me anyways?)...
...I mean, the last time I saw her was the 27th of December (the night before my birthday)...
...that's plenty of time for the feelings to go away, or for her to move on...
...I mean, it'd be easy. Her exes have wanted her back for awhile...
...Who knows what'd happen then?...
Well, with these depressing thoughts in my mind now, I'm gonna go curl up all fetal like and sleep (hopefully).
I could use that.
"The darkness of dreams will shroud the pains of reality. The shadows of pleasent thoughts will devoid the hardships of life. And while the struggles may be to hard
to bear, just remember, the answer lies behind shuttered eyes."
I just hope everything will be okay...TO BOB MARLEY!
"Don't worry, about a thing. 'Cuz every little thing, is gonna be alright."
I don't know if I can be that strong though. /_T