10~

I Never Tried

"I shouldn't really be upset; it should be you who's hurting right now. You're the one who lost someone who loved you and thought the world of you. I lost someone who never really cared. You may defend yourself by saying you did love me. But if you really loved me, would you have done those things you did?"

Sitting here thinking it through

Trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you

The hardest thing to do is love someone who doesn't care

They take advantage of you like thin air

But I can't breath

Ever since you decided to leave

I gave a reaction but how was that my fault

I was gonna run and lock the door with a bolt

But you snuck out, leaving me with my fears

Every slowing second, the demons draw near

I dunno what the fuck I'm doing here

I thought I'd learnt my lesson

When I last got burnt from depression

But you started messing

And the love you felt was quickly regressing

But you thought it'd be fun

If the ribbon on my heart you left undone

I tripped over the aftermath

And decided to take a new path

But every path looks the same

And every path led to the pain

I felt before you

Reliving it makes me feel nauseas

But I'd never fallen for a girl so gorgeous

But I judged a book by its cover

And you, I began to smother

But you silenced your plea for help

So how was I supposed to know you lost what you had once felt?

The tears I've always cried

The stains of them have never dried

All the apologises I never tried

Things would seem better if I'd hide

All the time I had lied

The times I said I wish you'd died

All them times I was never fully satisfied

Cos of the opportunities I never tried

You know my name, not my story

So listen close cos I'm gonna tell it to you

You are now my history

But you never missed me

You changed the subject

And when I was and down and out, you loved it

You made it public, stupid slut

How bout you shut the fuck up

Shove a sock in it

Or in your case, a cock in it

Maybe three or four you heartless whore

You played me about and I never once doubted you

All those times I said sorry for shouting at you

Never trusting you again, for fuck sake

In this shit-hole again

But cos of you, my trust is something another lass will never gain

You knew bout my anger issues

But you went ahead a provoked me

And when I came back to you, you stroked me aside

My friends you started to take you thieving slag

I don't see why everyone is leaving my side

And believing you instead

I'm sneezing cos I'm allergic to your bullshit

Cos you're a fucking liar

I'm sick of jumping through hoops

For someone who's gonna set them on fire

So how was I supposed to know you lost what you had once felt?

The tears I've always cried

The stains of them have never dried

All the apologises I never tried

Things would seem better if I'd hide

All the time I had lied

The times I said I wish you'd died

All them times I was never fully satisfied

Cos of the opportunities I never tried