Can Never Help It

I can't help but hate

How she disappears for days

As soon as I mention him

I can't help that he's just

A walk down the street

And she's

A million miles away

I can't help missing him

All of our inside jokes

And poisonous moments

I can't help but miss her

All we've done for each other

The moments we haven't yet made

I can't help being torn

Between them both

Neither is mine to

To

He's longing after three

None of them me

And she's still in love with her

The image I can't measure up to

Can't help wanting her

So different from him

Gentle to his rough

Pure to his everything

But still so similar

Shattered

Dark

Almost someone I never met

Not by fault of him or her

But me

My fault

'Cause I'm allowed to have those too