I'm dying inside with my heart breaking in about 1,000 pieces

Now I have to deal with my pain all by myself.

I fell so far from who I am... I'm not me how could I find me when it's so dark. There is a crack of light that sneaks through the cracks of the real world. Every once in a while someone will through down a ladder...but when I did they would pull it up

All they did...all that everyone did was dig my hole deeper. I get further and further from who I was... Or what I should be.

What if I don't want to go back up

What if I want to stay down in this dark, deep hole for the rest of my life.

But what if I don't want to be up there or down here... But there is no middle ground anymore.

There is no point to waist my time... To waist your time.

I'm not worth the wait or the trouble for me to come back... All the way up the ladder to the land I Now despise.

The trust I used to have drained away

I learned to turn off my feelings and deal with my life by huddling myself close.

With my knees pressed against my chest...

Trying to make myself small

It feels as if I was born for such hurt. For suck sadness... But it's not sadness it's being trapped. People are telling me it's okay and reach down there hand... I could reach up and grab it, but I turn and runaway from them.

I trap myself from the rest of the world.

It's only me...

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