i dreamt he wanted me.
i dreamt he put his arms around me, and held me.
i dreamt he smiled at me, took notice of me.
i dreamt we were together.
i dreamt i was happy.
well, it doesn't matter, right?
see, the problem
with the phrase "i dreamt" is that
the operative word is "dreamt".
the past tense of dream.
to dream. and
it was only a dream.
a good dream, but
still only a dream,
and dreams don't much matter to me anymore,
they are happy.
because i wake up,
and i *always* wake up, no matter
my efforts to the contrary.
and when i wake up,
i have nothing so nice
to look forward to,
living through yet another day.
suffering through yet another day.
yet another day.