what are you

thinking? that's all i want

to know, because honestly, honesty

isn't a word to you, is it?

even when you say you're

telling the truth, you're not

are you?

i need honesty, please

tell me the truth and

when you say you're being honest

don't lie.

i want to trust you and i

figure i will anyway, probably,

regardless of your warped

words, regardless of how i worry

please just

stop testing me, if that's what you're doing,

i get it now, i think

you're a liar and in your eyes

i'm not even a friend

am i?

(just something to occupy your time while

you're with her and

getting over her

so maybe you should stop the sweet words that

are never true, but make me want to believe that this could ever be

something

more

than

fake.)