I'm often asked why I am so adverse to having a photograph of myself taken. I would always jokingly say that the camera steals my soul, which many would insist that I don't have one. Truth be told, photographs scare me. They capture a moment in time yet every time you look at it, something's different. You can never fully experience what you felt when taking that photograph and you end up chasing phantoms that actually existed.
She died leaving me with only a photograph. It forced me to remember her that way and I slowly lost memories of her.