If I had one last smile,

I would have smiled it at you.

But I didn't.

There was nothing you could do.

If I had one last laugh,

we would have laughed together.

But I didn't.

So now I'll sleep forever.

If I had one last scream,

I would have screamed out your name.

But I didn't.

Please, don't take the blame.

If I had one last tear,

I would have cried it for your pain.

But I didn't.

My attempts were vain.

As you read this,

I'm most likely dead.

I killed myself.

Put a bullet through my head.

As I write this,

I'm crying out my heart.

But if you look deep down,

we shall never be apart.

No one lives forever.

That's not how it goes.

Everyone dies eventually.

This is something everyone knows.

For me, it's now.

For you, maybe tomorrow.

Maybe now, too,

if my death caused you sorrow.

Please, don't be sad.

I wish I could wipe away your tears.

Shh, I know,

my death was one of your worst fears.

Death isn't forever,

it's merely a little sleep.

I shall wake when Jesus comes,

for my soul He shall keep.