A/N Well it has been a while, and I apologize, but my school work comes first. I finally got this written because I had a long weekend and I had inspiration. I met someone, but that is another story.
So this chapter is all about Michael and his sexuality, and his first encounter with Nathan. I refer to Nathan through this whole chapter as he or him, because at the time that the events in this chapter were happening Michael did not know his name. I was going to make this chapter longer, but it was already long enough. I am hoping that their first encounter is good, I wrote it all in one sitting, as I normally do with these chapters.
I made change the timeline of the events in this chapter later on, if I do I will tell you all.
I don't know when I will write a new chapter, maybe tomorrow because I don't have any school work to do, and I don't have any tests coming up.
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Chapter 16: Michael
My feelings for another man
The beginning of my senior
Year. I realized it when I started
To pay more attention to the guys
In porn, more than the girls. At
First I denied them, and tried to
Force them out of me. I slept with
Women that I had no feelings for,
I watched lesbian porn constantly,
And tried to pray the gay away. I
Tried that for two months, but my
Feelings wouldn't go away.
Into a depression that lasted for
A month. I bought some anti-depressants
From a drug dealer at my school,
And those seemed to work for a while,
But then I ran out of pills, and money.
I couldn't go to a therapist without
My parents finding out, and if they
Did find out, they would keep
Pestering me until I would tell them
I ran out of pills the depression came
Back. My grades were slipping, I was
Becoming distant from my friends, and
Myself. I contemplated suicide a couple
Times, but when I thought about all of
The sadness that that would cause my
Family, and friends, I couldn't bring
Myself to do it. I even figured out what
Time and day I would do it, but when it
Was time to do it, I couldn't bring myself
To swallow the pills.
Didn't seem to notice a change
In my behavior. That was when
I finally brought myself to see the
Truth that was staring me in the
Face. She didn't care about me,
She never did. She only cared
About herself and her image. If
I killed myself she wouldn't care.
I started to become happier, and
Back to my original self. Realizing
That my girlfriend was a heartless
Bitch helped, but what did the most
Good was meeting him. The man who
I would fall for.
When I heard someone slip
His name into a conversation
Of out gay and lesbian kids in
My school. I heard his name
Before, but never in that context.
I didn't know much about him,
So I did some research. After
Seeing his picture, I remembered
That I had a couple classes with
Him before. We never talked
Before, so I knew that it would
Be hard for me to get close to
Him. I didn't know why I was
Trying to find him, I didn't know
Anything about him, but I wanted
To know him. I think the main
Reason was that he didn't seem
Like all the other out gay guys
At my school. He seemed 100%
Straight, except for the fact that
It seemed that he liked dick.
The First Time
I met him was during lunch one
Day. I didn't plan on talking to
Him, or even get close to him,
But sometimes life goes in my
Favor. A fight broke out between
Two underclassmen while lunch
Was going on. He happened to
Be the first one to respond and try
To break it up. I ran over to try and
Help, because he was not doing well
By himself, and in the process I got
Myself punched in the face. When
That happened a bunch of other
Guys got up and separated the two
Kids, while he came to my rescue and
Took me to the nurses office.
Was covering my nose, which was
Bleeding badly. He got me some
Napkins to try to stop the bleeding,
But they were now stained red.
"Don't worry, we're almost there,"
"That was not one of my more
"You tried to help, which is a lot more
Than I can say for all the other people
"Yeah, but I got myself punched
In the face. If I knew that would
Happen, I may have not decided
To lend my services to the cause."
"Hey, now at least you can get out of
Class for the rest of the day. That is
Always a plus in my book."
"Yeah, but I may need to spend the
Rest of the day in the hospital."
"Yeah, but now the whole school
Will think you are a hero."
"But you did the most work, all I
Did was get punched in the face."
"True, but you are super jock. Everyone
Will always think you are the hero."
"Well I won't let that happen. I
Will let them know that you did
The most life-saving."
"Thanks, but you don't have to do that,"
He said as we got to the nurse's office.
"I know, but I will."
"Because not all super jocks are the
Same. They aren't all selfish assholes,
Despite popular belief."
"Well maybe you will have to show
Me then sometime."
"Maybe," I said as I went into the nurse's
Office. Upon entering, I realized that I
Survived my first experience flirting
With another man. It felt right. I felt
Like I didn't need to keep fighting my