If I try I can remember what it was like to be real

But somehow I lost it in the blink of an eye

The thrill of my freedom and the ability to feel

That dark cloudy night where I left it all behind

If I try I can remember the smell of blood in the air

Faint but unmistakably there

Real life takes more than imagination and real life was never fair

Real life took more than fighting but it was easier when I had you there

In the darkness I see myself, I creep by and stay low

Past the righteous angels whose heads glow with their halos

None of it had been easy, none of it had been fair

Every step full of pain, but I wish I'd had you there

If I try hard I can forget what it was to live before

But somehow in my life there's an after now

The grief and blood and and the urge to take some more

That drives me into the ground

If I try I can remember the smell of blood in the air

Faint but unmistakably there

Real life takes more than imagination and real life was never fair

Real life took more than fighting but it was easier when I had you there

In the darkness I see myself, I creep by and stay low

Past the righteous angels whose heads glow with their halos

None of it had been easy, none of it had been fair

Every step full of pain, but I wish I'd had you there

Now that you're gone I feel so empty

There's no healing and no more believing

Now that you're gone everything is fading

There's just hating and waiting and faking

I'd have loved to know just once you cared

'Cause it wasn't enough to have you there

Real life takes more than imagination and real life was never fair

Real life took more than fighting but it was easier when I had you there

In the darkness I see myself, I creep by and stay low

Past the righteous angels whose heads glow with their halos

None of it had been easy, none of it had been fair

Every step full of pain, but I wish I'd had you there