Ne, Momma? Daddy? Do you know that I love you so much. And CaitlinNiichan, I love you as well. I know I'm not perfect. Hell, I have many faults. Datte, the faults are a part of me, they make up all that is me. I've long accepted my faults, but I don't reject them. Sure, I'm lazy, unmotivated, but I don't want to change what is me, into something that is not me. Mah, but I've tried to find out more about myself, and on the road, I've encountered depression, being suicidal, being sad.

A lot of tears were shed, that I wasn't sure I could cry anymore. But as I write this, I can tell you that I've started to cry more. But can I share a little about my faults and positives on a list for you?

Faults;

-Laziness

-Lack of motivation

-Fat

-Depression

-Suicidal thoughts

-Being a pervert

-Looking at things I shouldn't have

-Being addicted to the computer

-Having a short temper

-Being snarky all the time

-Unwillingness to take care of things that I mess up

Positives;

-I would do anything for my family

-I do love my dad with all my heart

-I have a loving mom, dad, and sister

-I have so many wonderful friends

-Me and my best friend have held strong through the bad

-I love to Volunteer

-I love to write

-I love to sing

-I love to play outside

-I love to read

-Those little moments, presents, is what means the most to me

-My adopted family

-I have a house over my head with clothes and food

-I know that God loves me so much.

Hai, there are a lot of faults, but the positives outweigh the negative.

So to all of my friends, family... Arigato for looking out for me, being so caring even though I've been a right bitch at times.

It's been a tough time, these past few years, but even so, I'll try to live positive, and be happier, if not for me, than for you.


Datte, I really needed to write this down.