As darkness closes in

I embrace it eagerly

Wanting the searing flame

Of it's evil desires

Knife blade pressed against my skin

Just laying. No harm yet done

Squeezing the handle

Unsure if I should do it

End it all now, release myself

From this hellish world

I close my eyes,

And take a deep breath

The pain takes me by surprise

But this temporary pain

Is nothing. The day to day

Struggle of life bypasses it

That white hot pain

Soon is followed by

Sheer blissful release

I make the final cut

Open my eyes and smile goodbye

The numbing relief taking over