3/5/2012

Doubting

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Is it enough, my Lord, to trust my life

Into Thy loving care?

I know that that Thou art merciful

I know that Thou art there

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The simple things of life surround

And pull me at my heart

Strange joy and sorrow intertwine

And taunt me from the start

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Romance and practicality

Both cry with equal call

Both demand my mastery

And both demand my all

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Not patience, nor yet quietness

Not stubborness or pride

Not charity or helpfulness

Can answer me inside

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Why is the trouble in my mind

Still yet without a key

And yet for all my twistedness

I know You're still with me

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What lacketh yet, my Lord, I cry

Why do shadows dim the way?

Do I forget Thy Holy Writ
Or must I learn to pray?

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All I that I had I offered Thee

In simple sacrifice

And yet my paths still seem to skirt

Along a precipice

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I've peace and I've security

With trouble and with doubt

All the muddled mess that's life

I cannot figure out

.

For together, and betwixt

I'm bound and I'm set free

I've friendship yet I'm all alone

-It's contradictory

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I know I have the answers, Lord

And yet still play the fool

My ignorance outstanding yet

As when I went to school

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No difference now, as was back then

No change in my opinion

I know the Truth yet overall

My flesh retains dominion

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Confusion meets my clarity

And takes it by the hand

For all the wisdom that I have

I've yet to understand

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There's something else within my life

Dividing me from Thee

Lord and Master of my soul

And my reality

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Something but I know not what

Somewhere I've never been

Somehow a Truth, that I must learn

A prayer that I must mean

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Merciful God, I plead Thy Word

Thy Honour and Thy Might

Show me what I yet must know

Tell me what is right

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Help me find Thee where Thou art

For there I seek to be

For only when I'm at Thy side

Can I be truly free