"Disappointment"
3/29/12

Posted as part of Project 365 - for the day: May 4, 2012


Up all this time,
and I still can't think.
You think I'm distant,
but I question my sanity.
I'm more than just a little unsteady.
I've been quiet, wondering
who will be the first to ask after me.
Intent ears always listening
but I am finding…

Disappointment, sharp and bitter;
that gall and bile keeping my company.
It's been so long, but in my broken memory
I still remember
the times I wanted to drift away,
and I still feel that way.

Today, can you guess,
I never would've guessed,
but I am never leaving this mess.
Your "best friend" took a little leave,
leap off the shore and sink beneath the waves,
so let your hopes and dreams expand,
fill every vestige of your sight and I will understand.
Whatever gives you that special way
of feeling about life.
And I am rife with…

Disappointment, sharp and bitter;
that gall and bile keeping my company.
It's been so long, but in my broken memory
I still remember
the times I wanted to drift away,
and I still feel that way.

A little knife to the pain only left a scar;
a little ointment maybe, but I left it in the jar;
so grab ahold and let me go
and I will always know:
your space is the special place you go
when you need to save face.

Disappointment, sharp and bitter;
that gall and bile keeping my company.
It's been so long, but in my broken memory
I still remember
the times I wanted to drift away,
and I still feel that way.