I want to say good bye

Even though I love you

More than anything

But I don't have the gall to kill myself

I want to tell this world good bye

There is beauty in it

In nature most of all

But I don't have the courage to kill myself

I want to bid this life good bye

Even thought it was a good life

I can't appreciate it

But I don't have the resolve to kill myself

I want to tell my problems good bye

I want to bid my depression farewell

I want to let my broken soul fade away into oblivion

But I don't have

Whatever it takes

To kill myself

There is really nothing I want more

That I want

I long for it

I beg for it

But

I can't

I don't know what it is exactly

That I lack

I just know I lack it

And it makes me scream with anger

That I do not have

Whatever it takes

To kill myself

Hopefully

I will

Gain it

Soon

Because I can't wait

Much longer