No Denying

Focusing does not come easy to me anymore
Nothing drives or motivates me
All I do is write and write
I write for him
About him
I think of nothing but him
Awake of asleep he is in my head
Calling out to me
He will not subside or diminish
No matter what I do his is there
I refuse to give him my love
But my heart and body are drawn to him
I long for him
I crave for him
I need him
No matter how much I try to deny it
But it cannot be
He is not here
He was never here
To far away for me to have
To far away for my heart to bare
Yet still he haunts my memories
My dreams