On the swings, I was wondering what I was feeling. Me and Cameron were sitting there, talking and laughing. Every time I would hang out with him, I would feel things, like butterflies in my stomach and I felt like I couldn't talk around him sometimes. Was I growing feelings toward him? I couldn't be, he was just my best friend, and even if I did, he probably doesn't feel the same and thinks we're just best friends.
"You ok Amanda?" Cameron says after noticing me staring at the ground.
"Oh, yeah sure, just thinking."
"Nothing, just about someone I may like."
Why am I so stupid? I can't believe I just said that! He sure won't like me now!
Who does she like? When she said this, I got a little mad, yeah. Maybe even jealous, I'm not sure. It's just, every time I hang out with her alone, I get these feelings in the pit of my stomach that I can't fight back. But I bet she just thinks we're best friends, I'm not saying we aren't, but I hope to be more.
"Who do you like?" I ask trying to fight back the jealous look from showing on my face.
"Um, maybe my best friend, I'm not that sure yet."
Was she talking about me? She probably isn't, she probably has a crush on some other best friend I don't know.
"Oh really? I didn't know that."
"Yeah well, anyways, who do you like?"
"Um well, I'm not really sure if I like her, but same as you, my best friend."
I can't believe I just told him my crush! Well, technically I told him what he was, not that it was him. He said that his crush was his best friend too, does he mean me? No, he can't mean me, probably another best friend.
"Oh, nice," I say not looking at him.
"I have to tell you something," Cameron says while looking at the ground.
"What is it Cameron?"
"Um, well, we've known each other for a long time, and have had really nice and sweet moments, right?"
"Yeah, what about it?"
"During those moments, I've been, well, crushing on you, I have for a long time, I just never noticed, I really like you, and –"
I leaned in fast and kissed him gently. When we pulled away, Cameron started to say something.
"I don't think I like you anymore."
"What? Why not?" I say starting to cry.
"Because… I love you."
I hugged him tightly while crying. He hugged back and started to cry also.
"I love you too…"