My Boyfriend Makes Me Feel Inadequate


The weather is nice. It's not so muggy out here, with the sea air. We go to the beach often.

"Tyler." He looked – Kieran was packing the car. "Could you run back inside and grab the map?"

"Sure thing."

I'm a little worried about university, but Kieran keeps me relaxed. He keeps saying it'll be no big deal, or that he'll help me through any problem I have.

"Kieran, you were supposed to turn off back there."

"I know that. I just thought you'd appreciate me making a U-turn over here."

Short hedgerows line the sides of the road.

I've been doing what you asked. I brush my teeth. I change my underpants. I've made some friends here too. I'm sure I'll make more when university starts.

Night falls on a campground up the coast. The trees are overflowing with leaves, thick and green even in the dark. The tent has been pitched in a circle of cedar trees.

"I forgot the bag with the food," Kieran said. He was rustling through the bag they'd brought.

"Let's go back to the car then."

"Yeah. Here." Kieran handed Tyler a blanket.

They walked along the path they'd taken, leaving their belongings at the campsite. A night wind rushed through the leaves, making a great washing sound like an endless rain, ruffling the hair of our two men.

The car was right where they left it, in the parking area. The front of the car was facing a small lake where bulrushes were scattered. Kieran dipped inside the car, and came out with the bag.

"Okay, let's go," said Tyler. He was imagining a bear eating their tent.

"Wait a sec."

Kieran went over to the front of the car. He slid up, and put the food beside him. "Come on," he said, patting beside him, while leaning back against the windshield.

Tyler did get up, but hesitantly. When he got close enough, Kieran reached and pulled him over to his side. Once they were settled, he took the blanket, unfolded it, and wrapped it around them.

They sat in silence, listening to the frogs in the lake.

Tyler murmured, "You can see so many stars here."

"Mmm." After a second, Kieran had something to say. "Tyler… you know, ever since I met you, it's like my life has been exploding."

Tyler barked out a laugh.

"I'm serious. Everything I thought was going on… well, it was something different. I'm not who I thought I was, I didn't want what I thought I wanted… and I'm glad. Tyler, I just wanted you to know."

He pauses one second, then kisses Tyler on the forehead. "I love you."

"I love you too," he replies reflexively. He's in thought, though, thinking about what Kieran had said. "I guess I feel the same way. Nobody's changed me more than you."

"I'm glad."

"Can we go back to the tent now?"

"Couple minutes? Please?" Kieran made his puppy dog eyes.

"Sure. A couple minutes." The frogs went on with their lovers' songs.

Yeah, that's it. I'm enjoying myself. Kieran… he makes me feel so good. I hope you guys are okay. Yeah… call me back later, okay?

A/N: That's it! So, there was no thirteenth chapter, and that was a pretty short epilogue. But I just couldn't make the other parts come. And if they were going to be forced… they probably would not have been so good. At least things are tied up well.

I know there are some loose ends that didn't get wrapped up… Craig and Neil mostly. You can imagine that part yourself.

I have another project I'm working on. It'll be a one-shot, but a long one. I'm working hard at it –for once, I want it to be just right, so I'm editing it. That's really a first for me. It just feels so important this time though.

Tell me what you think – about this epilogue, and about the story as a whole. I feel like it's ended up as such a dog's breakfast, but there has been good things as well. Who did you like? What parts resonated with you? Was the storytelling style enjoyable for you?