The Diary of a Girl Falling In Love – Day 1: Figuring Feelings

He has every single girl in this school at his feet. I don't know what I feel about it. Well, I like him… If he asks me to be his, I'll be. He's amazing! Beautiful, funny, smart, and I always have some subject to talk with him. Yeah, he's perfect.

Today I heard him saying that he was committed with a girl with who he was hanging about one week. OK, I really want him to be happy. But I'm afraid that, with all his 'perfection', some girls want to be his just because of his beauty, without know the amazing one he is, yes? And the worse is this is truth. I'm just afraid that this girl will break his heart like another one does. Because I see how bad he gets when she broke up with him. That moment, I wanted to hug him and try to help him to face it, as a friend, of course.

I HATE when he stares at me. OK, he does it with everyone, but the worst part is that I can't stop staring at him too. Today I get really embarrassed when I was trying to do my school work and he doesn't stop looking at me. And it's fascinating how I couldn't stop looking at his eyes too. I don't know, there's something inside him that makes me like him. You know, not like a girl likes a boy, but wants the best like you want the best to our best friend.

I just want the best for him, and, if he's happy with that girl, I'm fine, I'm happy for him. He's my friend, and I care about him. I just don't want to see him bad like before. But, doesn't matter what happens, he'll always have a friend with who he can count on.

Love, love, love, Mariana.