Avalanche

I'm climbing to the top

I'm not gonna stop

Gotta be my best

Gotta forget my strain

Gotta be better than the rest

And forget my pain

But when I'm near the top

Something comes crashing down

It knocks me down

Down on the ground

Crushed my soul

And buried me whole

Waiting to be found

So I can start again

I'm at the starting blocks

My past, all it does is mock

Me for what I'm doing now

Waiting for the signal

That's an iconic symbol in my life

Before I begin to climb

And a new future I'm willing to find

I've gotta work hard for it

But there's more shit

In my way

It happens everyday

I thought I'd grown accustom

To them, but I try to bust them

Open, it doesn't work

And I'm left flailing

And failing

And I'm parasailing

Down this mountain range

Because nothing has changed

I'm staring defeat in the face

Losing the race

I tried so hard to win

And I've gotta to start again

The next race is about to begin

I'm climbing to the top

I'm not gonna stop

Gotta be my best

Gotta forget my strain

Gotta be better than the rest

And forget my pain

But when I'm near the top

Something comes crashing down

It knocks me down

Down on the ground

Crushed my soul

And buried me whole

Waiting to be found

So I can start again

If I said I loved you

Would it make a difference at all

It would only push me further down

And increase my chance of a fall

I'd break my back for you

Cut the rope we're hanging from

But you'd watch me fall

You'd watch me die

You wouldn't help me like I'd help you

You'd do everything with me

Even though it's all a lie

You couldn't care less

That you've knocked me down to a grovelling mess

You revel in my sorrow

While I wallow

In why I made my head hollow

I'd lay my life on the line

I said I'd never be in this situation again

But I forgot everything that I said before

When you came in and promised me more

But I've been stripped down to all I have left

I couldn't accuse you of theft

But you'd simply deny everything

And not even care what's happened to me

I'm climbing to the top

I'm not gonna stop

Gotta be my best

Gotta forget my strain

Gotta be better than the rest

And forget my pain

But when I'm near the top

Something comes crashing down

It knocks me down

Down on the ground

Crushed my soul

And buried me whole

Waiting to be found

So I can start again

I'm not gonna sugar-coat it

I'm not rising above what I said I was never gonna be

But I'm not gonna give up hope

I'm not gonna cut the rope and watch myself suffer

I'll cut it and drop the shit

That has been pulling me down on my ascent

To reach everything what I was meant

To see if I want to be who I want to be

I'm stood on the top

I'm glad I didn't stop

I did it with the help of everyone

Even the people who gave me grief

But that gave me belief in myself

And I knew I needed to help myself

To get where they said I would never

I've reached new heights

Seen new sights

And it's all down to those pointless fights

I'm climbing to the top

I'm not gonna stop

Gotta be my best

Gotta forget my strain

Gotta be better than the rest

And forget my pain

Despite the struggle feeling long

I'm where I'd never thought I'd be

But I'm glad that I proved everyone wrong

Especially me