Avalanche
I'm climbing to the top
I'm not gonna stop
Gotta be my best
Gotta forget my strain
Gotta be better than the rest
And forget my pain
But when I'm near the top
Something comes crashing down
It knocks me down
Down on the ground
Crushed my soul
And buried me whole
Waiting to be found
So I can start again
I'm at the starting blocks
My past, all it does is mock
Me for what I'm doing now
Waiting for the signal
That's an iconic symbol in my life
Before I begin to climb
And a new future I'm willing to find
I've gotta work hard for it
But there's more shit
In my way
It happens everyday
I thought I'd grown accustom
To them, but I try to bust them
Open, it doesn't work
And I'm left flailing
And failing
And I'm parasailing
Down this mountain range
Because nothing has changed
I'm staring defeat in the face
Losing the race
I tried so hard to win
And I've gotta to start again
The next race is about to begin
I'm climbing to the top
I'm not gonna stop
Gotta be my best
Gotta forget my strain
Gotta be better than the rest
And forget my pain
But when I'm near the top
Something comes crashing down
It knocks me down
Down on the ground
Crushed my soul
And buried me whole
Waiting to be found
So I can start again
If I said I loved you
Would it make a difference at all
It would only push me further down
And increase my chance of a fall
I'd break my back for you
Cut the rope we're hanging from
But you'd watch me fall
You'd watch me die
You wouldn't help me like I'd help you
You'd do everything with me
Even though it's all a lie
You couldn't care less
That you've knocked me down to a grovelling mess
You revel in my sorrow
While I wallow
In why I made my head hollow
I'd lay my life on the line
I said I'd never be in this situation again
But I forgot everything that I said before
When you came in and promised me more
But I've been stripped down to all I have left
I couldn't accuse you of theft
But you'd simply deny everything
And not even care what's happened to me
I'm climbing to the top
I'm not gonna stop
Gotta be my best
Gotta forget my strain
Gotta be better than the rest
And forget my pain
But when I'm near the top
Something comes crashing down
It knocks me down
Down on the ground
Crushed my soul
And buried me whole
Waiting to be found
So I can start again
I'm not gonna sugar-coat it
I'm not rising above what I said I was never gonna be
But I'm not gonna give up hope
I'm not gonna cut the rope and watch myself suffer
I'll cut it and drop the shit
That has been pulling me down on my ascent
To reach everything what I was meant
To see if I want to be who I want to be
I'm stood on the top
I'm glad I didn't stop
I did it with the help of everyone
Even the people who gave me grief
But that gave me belief in myself
And I knew I needed to help myself
To get where they said I would never
I've reached new heights
Seen new sights
And it's all down to those pointless fights
I'm climbing to the top
I'm not gonna stop
Gotta be my best
Gotta forget my strain
Gotta be better than the rest
And forget my pain
Despite the struggle feeling long
I'm where I'd never thought I'd be
But I'm glad that I proved everyone wrong
Especially me