I was so sure that I would've done it correctly by this time. Where did I go wrong?
"You'll be okay honey, we'll make sure of it," a woman said who seemed out of breath.
I looked away and let the dizziness drown me in. I don't think she gets it; I want to die. If my heart could talk, it would surely blame me for all the pain I couldn't avoid.
Where will I go from now?
Everything was that afternoon. All I know is that I'm still alive, with this pain. A familiar
The hallways were quiet but an eerie atmosphere surrounded the whole area. Not much of a surprise since it's a hospital full of delusional kids.
For me, this was my haven place; away from the work, the pressure, the insecurities, and the annoying teachers.
But I know exactly what my family is thinking this very moment…. She's just like her father, making problems for everyone.
Tears suddenly blurred my vision as I walked in my room, my roommate was already asleep. Two plain single beds across each other, pillow and a blanket for each, one desk, a window-locked and secured, and a bathroom; nothing much had changed.
"Verona, Verona," the nurse whispered and I opened my eyes.
She smiled at me and said; "The doctor wants to see you."
"Before breakfast?" I asked her.
"She said it's urgent," the nurse smiled once more.
"Hi Verona," Ms. Burnswood sighed as I sat on one of her chairs, the furthest one. Unfortunately, she's the same doctor who discharged me about three years ago.
She stared at me with prominent blue eyes; blue eyes like those suck the soul out of me, drowning me to the deep blue aquatic sea. I shiver and blinked trying to gain back consciousness.
"I thought you were getting better,"
No one gets better; the pills you made me take just numbed the pain.
I wanted to say it but that would earn me a place to the hot list, a list where troublemakers are placed on.
"I was," I slowly spoke.
"You tell me, you're supposed to make me feel better," I blurted out. I looked away as I try to hold on to my tears.
We both sigh. But I know in her eyes, I was just another patient she failed to 'cure.'
"Why don't you tell me what your remember before you overdose,"
There came a sudden memory, fresh as a brand new cut on your wrist.
"Verona?" he said confused about the whole situation.
I slowly took a step forward and lightly kissed his lips. Soft and cold.
"Goodbye," I whispered softly…
I took a big breath and let it go. Why am I so stupid?
"Did you remember something?" Mrs. Burnswood asked me.
I couldn't possibly tell her that I just kissed the guy I liked.
"Something wrong? You're turning red."
"I just need to rest," I managed to say.
'Cause I was so sure at that time that I would be able to do it, how am I supposed to face him now? I think I took a step backward.
A/N- Let me know what you think! =]