No one ever forgets their first love. No one can forget that strange feeling you have towards someone for the first time. The adimiration, the awkardness, the passion...I wish I could forget it all. Of course if it weren't for my first love I wouldn't be the person I am today. It's thanks to that person that I am where I am. I am stronger than I was before because of the pain and heartbreak I dealt with because of him. My first only love. I hate him so much. I hate having to love him so much.

We both haven't completely moved on with our lives. We still keep in touch and talk every now and then, but I don't think there is a future for us. I can't forget what he did and I'm not sure I'll be able to ever fully forgive him, but I should call. Today's his did things end up like this. I never would have thought any of this would have happened. Things seemed so much easier when I was in high school. Our love was real then...but that all changed when he decided to leave. How I wish I could go back to those happy days we spent together. I still remember how we first met and how we fell in love...but that's all in the past now.