Mind reeling

Head spinning

Stomach churning

Spine tingling

Anxiety at it's worst

Ugliness at it's best

Which will take over first,

Putting thoughts to rest?

Hurting, inside and out

Crying, not out loud

Whispers wish to shout

Trapped in a hazy cloud

Hurt smiles you don't see

Eyes filled with pain

No one sees the misery

I try to hide in vain

Pretending it's all right

Hating myself for it all

A raging internal fight

Still too close to call

Faking it as I do

Acting like I'm whole

Breaking into two

Praying the Lord will take my soul