I'm Losing You

I found out

That I wasn't how I thought I was

I saw me through your eyes

I didn't see the pure flame that was there before

My heart is poisoned

Poisoned by thoughts that will never leave me alone again

Poisoned by thoughts that have infiltrated my soul

Poisoned by thoughts that have planted themselves inside my mind

I need you here to help me

But I tell you to look away from me

And when you know you need to help me

You again believe my words

I want you to hold me near

But I push away your arms when you embrace me

Your eyes full of hurtful feelings

Then again make the lies grow bigger

The seeds turn into full-grown plants

And you give up trying

I scream inside: I don't want to lose you!

But all you see, is a joyful smileā€¦