'healing has no timeline,' you told me. I understand with my heart not my head. it's tricky trying to get your head to follow through. baby steps. strides. strokes. all good in theory, but sometimes I wanna paint the picture in a day, run 24 hours if I have to. it's so hard to tell myself to back down when I've wanted this for 10 years. dreams calling, but I'm not able to listen. no, we learn at our pace, just like we teach the students that teach us.

a/n: ever wanted something so bad that it has killed you a little to lose it?