the feeling suddenly hits you. sometimes it takes hours, days, even months to realize you're alone again. it's at night when you have nothing but your thoughts to keep you company. trying to fill that silence with noise, white and black noise of music and textbooks.

somehow it's this technology that makes me feel connected and disconnected simulatenously. sometimes, I feel only technology can bridge this distance, however only temporarily and artificially. I still miss the intimacy of seeing faces and reading body language live not through some program or webcam or microphone. those are merely constructions.

isn't it easy to record the breakdown of communication? words empty of gestures behind them, pressing keys and touching screens. one 'send' button away from any real interaction.