Cal's lips were warm on mine; slowly I leaned into the kiss. His hands came around my waist pulling me close, and he tilted his head, deepening the kiss. And just as the kiss was getting good, Cal roughly pulls me away.
"Shit." Cal breathed out and stepped back from me.
I looked at Cal with curious eyes but he never met mine. He stared passed me and I waited for him to say something, talk to me. Instead Cal mumbled a 'sorry' and walked off the porch into the house without a second glance. Turning around I stared out into the darkness, the more I thought about Cal, the pondering turned to anger.
Who does that? Kisses a person and then just apologizes?
I couldn't find the answers. Walking back into the house, I looked for Meg. I wanted to get out of this place and back to my warm comfortable bed that doesn't complicate things and will always be there for me. Even, if it's an inanimate object.
I catch sight of Meg leaning against the wall next to the kitchen, I strode up to her and without a word she knew something was wrong. She pushed the latest guy she was flirting with away from her, "Want to get out of here?" she questioned not really knowing what was wrong.
All I could do was nod, and she led me out of there.
In the car, Meg kept giving me quick glances and realizing I didn't want to talk about it she pushed," Okay, what happened?"
Giving up the looking-out-the-window-to-ignore-someone trick, I turned to her," Have…has anyone ever kissed you and then just suddenly walk away from you, saying sorry?"
"Is that what happened?" Meg's face lightened up and she was grinning now," Who kissed you Karen, who's the lucky man?"
I shook my head smiling for the first time sense the party," Does it matter… answer the question."
"How about…a question, for a question?" She winked at me. "No… I can honestly say that has never happened to me." She looked at me expectantly, but I just kept looking at her not wanting to give her the name. Meg raised her hand.
"Cal" I whispered, admitting defeat.
"Who? I didn't quiet here you." She smiled leaning in closer, and I glared at her, she totally heard me.
"What could it mean?" I looked out the window once more.
"Hm… Cal's pretty interesting, isn't he…?" Meg continued to drive home, trying to think of an answer for me, "Maybe you should talk to him?"
"No, I think I'm done with Cal, he's too confusing." I sighed, leaning my head against the window.
Meg just looked at me, and then continued driving.
I woke up the next day with a heavy headache; I pushed the covers off me and glanced at my clock.
It's 1 in the afternoon already? Meg's probably already left for work.
Stepping out of bed, I make my way into the kitchen for something to cure my headache. But I find nothing and drinking a glass of water isn't enough. Grabbing my purse, I decide to go to the grocery store.
I walk through the aisles, first pouring myself some coffee, and then search for the Advil. Finding the drug section, I stroll down the aisle distracted by the many medicines there are, looking for the…
Suddenly, I bump into something, someone hard. My coffee falls to the floor, splattering across the ground, but the convenience store's Grade A coffee cup keeps it from being a complete mess.
Ugh… I think my headache is worse now.
I notice that my coffee got on the strangers shoes and I feebly mumble," I'm sorry. I didn't… see you there."
Green eyes stare back at me and all of a sudden I pray that my coffee stains those shoes forever.
"Karen…" Cal softly says, most likely suffering from the same thing I am.
I curse at him for making my heart jump when he said my name and I curse at myself for thinking about how hot he looks, with bedhead hair and slight stumble.
I reach passed Cal, grabbing the Advil off the shelf. I know it was childish to not acknowledge him but I didn't really care. He was the last person I wanted to run into right now.
"Hey… Karen wait!" I quickly purchase my item and stiffly walking out of the store.
Barely making it to the parking lot, a hand gently grabs my upper arm, turning me to him. I glare at the ground, even though the asphalt doesn't deserve it, Cal does.
"Karen… Karen. Look at me, please!" Cal says exasperatedly.
"What! What do you want Cal?" I pull out of the grip he has on me.
"I know, you've said that already." I scowl at him.
"I know… shit. I know what I did last night and I am… I am sorry. I never meant to kiss you..." Cal rubbed a hand through his hair.
"You think I didn't realize that already." I shake my head, walking away from him but again he doesn't let me get far.
"Karen…" Cal starts but I interrupt him.
"You know what's funny. I would be happy with Bryan. He is cute, he is funny and he treats me right. He's perfect you know." I close my eyes tightly trying to make the tears go away, "but Bryan's not you, he can never be you… If I never had met you I would be happy with him. Why are you so confusing... I think I need you... to leave me alone from now on."
"I can do that." He said simply. "If that's what you want. I can do that"
I hesitated wondering if that's what I really want, I try to remember what my life was like before Cal was in it, but I can't.
"I don't know what I want…"
"I know." Cal nods his head, looking at me with sincere eyes.
And with that I turn, walking back to my apartment with a new found headache.
It didn't take long for Meg to get home after I called her, crying about how everything feels so out of control, almost making me want to go back to the guys that leave me for hot models. Well, almost.
"Karen…?" Meg called out to me closing the front door.
"In the…kitchen" I mumble through my comfort food I'm happily stuffing my face with.
"Geez, Karen!" She takes in the grotesque sight of me, my hair was a mess and I still had on my pajamas with probably bright red eyes from crying.
Meg comes over and takes the cheesecake from me. "You're going to get fat if you eat all that." She teased.
"That doesn't matter!" I whined grabbing for the delicious cake.
"It does matter; I don't want a fat sister."
"Gimme!" I reach to grab the plate from her but she quickly pulls away from me, the plate tilts in her hands. It lands with a 'splat' on the floor.
"Look at what you did." My sister tsk-tsk's at me.
"I'll still eat it." I push my fork into the goo and lift it to my face but Meg slaps it from me.
"Stop it." She chuckles, and then sighs," I can't believe he did this to you, that idiot." She sits down on the chair next to me.
"I think I really like him, Meg." I state softly and look her continuing. "Is love supposed to be this hard? I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a perfect guy, Bryan, and all I can think about is Cal, who has been nothing but trouble from the start."
"We can't always decide who we fall in love with…" Meg rested her head in her hands, gazing at me.
"It would be wrong to keep being with Bryan, huh?" I look at her for an answer that I already know.