After food Jen went and checked on the something or other. I didn't quite catch what he said it was called. Jan went up to the top deck and I followed her up after I finished my food.
"So," I said, "You and Jen are going to be Joined." I didn't say it as a question.
She wasn't looking at me. She had the wheel between hers hands, gripped so tight I thought that she might break it.
"Talk to me Jan, did I do something? I'm sorry." I pleaded.
"Why are you apologising to me? And what makes you think you did something?"
"Well you not talking to me makes me think I did something."
She kept her gaze forward on the waters stretching ahead.
"Was it the mind stuff that I was doing with Jen?"
She opened her mouth but didn't say anything, just nodding her head
"I'm sorry about that, I didn't know that it would hurt him so badly."
"Have you ever done that?" she sounded scared.
I nodded sadly
"What, uh, how, um, did it happen?" Jan asked.
"It was when I found out that I was a mind hacker. My mum was thinking a question and I answered it. It freaked out my sister who was there at the time. She was two. My mum figured it out pretty quickly. She was going to hit me. I stopped her and made her forget. It was hard but I made it back to my room before I collapsed. I woke up in the hospital, thinking that I had been caught. When my mum was there crying over me. And the nurse said something about me finally waking up I knew that she had forgotten. I had missed an entire week of my life. I'm glad that he was only gone for a few hours."
This little speech had made me tired and so I collapsed on the ground. I looked up at Jan. She was still staring ahead but she looked to be thinking and not containing her anger.
"So... He was lucky."
"Yes, but he did manage to get it work. But tell him I recommend that he doesn't try that again."
"I'll make sure of that." She almost threatened.
"So when are you going to be Joined?" I said
"Hopefully?" I asked
"Well with Jen being a mind hacker we have to find a Joiner who doesn't mind, without our actually asking." She explained.
"Well, not to be rude or anything, but can't he just probe them?" I asked
"No, the only thing he knows how to do is attack, and I don't want him to do that, it seems wrong."
"Fair enough then." I thought about this for a moment.
"Is that why you are going to Dameous, to find someone who won't mind joining a mind hacker?"
"Yeah." She looked ashamed.
"Hey, there's nothing wrong with that." I told her "If I ever want to get joined that's what I'm going to have to do."
She looked happier for a moment, then her face fell again.
"But are you ever going to be joined?" she asked.
"I don't know." I said truthfully, "But I want to be."
"Well, when we get to Damenos, and Jen and I are joined, I'll help you find someone. How does that sound."
"Like a very bad idea." I said.