ive done everything right.
well not right, but what needs to be done.
i cleaned up, took a shower,
bathed in the glow of a painless sun
and heard something else besides rattling in my head.
i breathed in burnt coffee and stale cigarettes,
nothing white, and nothing to weigh me down.
i did everything fucking right.

and its not helping.


blackout my eyes 8/9/12