Better For You, Better For Me

Better for you to give me hurt
Than nothing at all
Better for you to slice me into a thousand pieces
Than leave me bleeding
Better for your words to hurt
Than to not work
Better for you to hurt
Than you to be lost in the dark
Better for you, and better for me

"I don't miss you, I miss the misery"
Tell me you hate me
I know it means my life means something to you
Tell me to die
I know you care enough to want me to die
Tell me to lose myself
I know you care enough to find me again
Just to start over as before

Better for you to give me hurt
Than nothing at all
Yet the hurt, makes it so
I can't breathe
I can't think
I can't see past my tears
The words meld into my mind
And they will not leave
And the tape isn't working
To mend my shattered heart

Better for you to slice me into a thousand pieces
Than leave me bleeding
Yet the pain shreds my soul
And I can't find the light
And I can't feel the dark
And I can't feel...anything

Better for for your words to hurt
Than to not work
Yet what you say is full of darkness
And I can't see how you are supposed to help me
When all you seem to do is make me fall

Better for you to hurt
Than for you to be lost in the dark
Yet you are a stranger in disguise
I can't recognize you anymore
You are the disbelief residing in me

Better for you, better for me...
So why does it hurt so much?
Why are my words a lie?
Why do I want it to go away?
If your words are my solace
Why don't I feel saved?
Why am I more lost than before?
Why am I so alone?

Better for you to give me hurt
Than nothing at all
Or perhaps not
Perhaps...this time, it's too much
Perhaps this time
I will leave you all alone