the voices beckon

they call

for me to grow up

for me to leave

my innocence

behind

they call me names that i wouldn't have known

whore, bitch, slut, cunt!

because i was only little

i knew i couldn't obey them

but the smack and crack of their words

the smack and crack of his belt and blades

with one last final scream i belted out

'don't forget how happy i used to be!'

before i surrounded myself

with mercury