i'm adrift, slipping through strands of time and space to get to a hazy destination of which i am unaware and unprepared to be received into

i'm backwards, digging myself into even deeper holes and scrabbling to escape, unsuccessful in all but pushing more dirt to the top

i'm careless, making it oh so easy for those with enough knowledge to trip me, and watch me fall into nothingness

i'm tired, wishing for noise and nerves and life and sensations to rapidly slip away, one by one, until all that remains is a bare soul with no more clouds to hide it from ever-watchful eyes

i'm just a girl with no place in this world but to watch and, perhaps, make my own mark in bluegreenredgold ink that i hope will endure until the end