Not Okay

"Are you okay Samantha?"

I'm in Spanish

My hands are shaking

Are the other kids laughing at me?

The clock is ticking

Too loud

The clock is just too damn loud

"Samantha?"

The worry in my teacher's voice shocks my system

I smile

Shrug off her concern

"I'm fine"

I'm not

"Just a little bit tired"

I can't think properly

Has she given up?

I can't tell

She returns to her lesson

Nothing makes sense

Can the other students feel it?

Are they shaking as bad as I am?

They're staring at me

Waiting for me to break

I know it

Why did she have to say anything?

I'm going to throw up

I'm going to pass out

The bell rings

I am freed from nothing