I wanna die.

I wanna curl up and forget everything.

I. Just. Wanna. Forget.

I wanna forget about life.

All the frivolous things that need done.

I'm so tired.

I wanna die.

I wanna feel.

Feel more than the icy grip of my self-induced pain.

Feel.

Feel my heart race from joy.

Pleasure.

Excitement.

Instead of from it's feeble attempts at passing the slowly draining blood through my spent and weary body.

I. Just. Wanna. Die!

I wanna see myself grow a family.

A family of my own.

A family who loves me for me.

But, no.

I can't.

I won't.

I will not allow myself to inflict my sorrows on another.

My pain.

I wanna die.

I wanna die

I Wanna Die.

I WANNA DIE!

I WANT TO DIE!

KILL ME!

KILL ME!

END MY PAIN!

MY REGRET!

I CAN'T DO IT MYSELF!

THE PAIN IS EASY!

the end is not...

please...

i just wanna die...