To be honest, right now I'm really angry and upset. Maybe it's not fully at you, I don't know. I just really fucking needed someone last night. I was over the top triggered and hysterically crying. I really needed someone who I could actually talk to and no one was there. I didn't know who to talk to so I just sat in my room panicking. I feel empty, worthless, pathetic, and unloved. Again.
Speaking of again, Megan tried to slit her wrists or something because of me. Why do I destroy everything? I really do. I'm scared of Hunter doing something too. I don't know. I don't feel anything right now. Megan wants me to call her but I'd rather call you. But you won't pick up so I guess I'll go with her. I don't know what else to say.