I couldn't help but now believe that one of my good friends that I knew since the 8th grade had died during the summer of 2011. When I first found out about Royce I couldn't get his voice out of my head.

As I got home the day I found out I couldn't stop crying. When my mom got home that day she had said that Royce was with God now and in a better place now. My father had similar thing to me.

I couldn't help but repeating to my mom as I was crying saying Why Did He Have To Leave. Why couldn't he had been saved or given more time. When I was repeating this I knew it was useless because I knew I wouldn't get to see him again until the day I die as well.

As I was typing this chapter for you all to read I remember crying my eyes out only about a week ago listening to this song as I was thinking about Royce.

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong
I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
(Yeah I'm) Falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself – nooohooo
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again

Outta the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting go)
I'm Falling from cloud 9
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I am trying to hold on
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
But I'm not blind anymore…
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I'm Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
You know I'm letting go tonight
I'm Falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake

TO THIS DAY I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER ROYCE HODGE AS ONE OF MY GREATEST FRIENDS THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET
Royce Hodge October 2 1996 – July 14 2011.