I'm feeling so blue don't know why
I guess I hated to say bye
To my new online buddy
You say I got too close
In some ways I guess you were right
But I don't know I just feel things
At home aren't the way I wish them to be
Our different tastes in things in noticeable
So when my friend says what he likes
Sorry for being curious
I gave college football a shot
I didn't really think I'd enjoy it that much
And you know what IT IS FUN
and could become a new favorite sport
But because it's a reminder of him
I'm no longer allowed to watch
I guess the same goes for Wallander
and probably Last Summer of Wine
Which you probably don't know are on the DVR.
I guess I should understand that to you
These appear like secret signs that
I pay attention to him.
And just when I think things are going
To get back on the right track
It hurt oh so very much
When I made a recommendation
From my DVD collection
And you found it too boring and
wanted to switch it back to something
I wasn't in the mood to watch
Can I help it if what you want to see
Just doesn't interest me and prefer to
At least watch something uplifting
I guess in some ways I want us to be okay
I just don't know how to make it that way
In the end I want someone to know me
Without me having to say anything
Don't get me wrong it's not what you think
We are just friends nothing more than that.
I would prefer it was you and not someone else
But I don't know how to get passed all the sadness.
Maybe we do need time apart
I don't know it feels wrong to say that
Marriage isn't easy I don't know why this so
It's something God created and he's always right
Everything He does is wonderful and amazing
Maybe I'm the one whose ultimately wrong.
I guess I was too dumb and naïve
For actually believing in such things as happy endings.