My life is a lie.
I can't be open like everyone else.
I'm buried inside of myself.
I'm in a hole so deep, I can't get out.
I'll be buried alive in my own lies.
I torture others to compensate.
That one kid,
That one girl,
she's so open,
she's so free,
Why does she have to flaunt her abilities in my face?
I push her into lockers,
I call her rotten names.
I think she deserves it.
One day she corners me,
Asks me what my problem is.
I pretend to be uncomfortable.
I can't admit myself to her.
She can't know how I feel about her.
I don't want to.
She'll laugh.
She asks why I'm so mean to her.
She tells me I'm making her depressed.
I apologize.
I realize what I'm doing.
She'll never love me now.
I decide to tell her.
I say it.
Her mouth drops open.
She then slaps me.
It hurts like an open wound.
She tells me that I now feel her pain.
She walks away.
I am forever alone.
No one will ever love me.
I am hopeless.