Thump. Thump. Tick. Tick.

I glance at my watch.

The seconds move slow
Yet the hours fly
She sits close to me
But not close enough.

Wait for the moment
Wait for the minute
Wait for the second where everything fits

Thump. Thump. Tick. Tick.

It's her and me now
Should I tell her?

Thump.

No.
The moment passed.
In a split second.

I try not to stare
As common history would have it
It's the soul initiation factor
Where I gave myself away
And I'm sure she knew it
Cause now I know it.

Thump. Thump. Tick. Tick.

A new moment. Another chance.
The ongoing battle rages into sudden death
So many thoughts voice their clues
What do I do?

Thump.

Nothing. Paralyzed with indecision.
Another moment,
Fading swiftly into history's unwritten pages.

My time is almost up
I'm just about to leave
Do I tell her?
It's not the time or the place
But it's certainly the last time and place
It's now or never
So what is my choice?

Thump. Thump.

Foot after foot
I wind my way towards the exit
Will I see her before I leave?
The door ahead offers the answer.

She stands inside, alone and silent
She looks up as I enter

Thump.

Is this it?
What is my choice?
She is not looking at me
Alone and silent

The air is ready
I am ready
The one gesture I will make
Without hesitation
Will tell me my answer

Thump.

I approach her
She stands between me and my exit
I move on shaking legs-
-And I turn my back towards her
As I bypass her
Without a word
Without my heart
Without our truth.

Did she know?
Did she feel?
Did she understand?

Thump. Thump. Tick. Tick.

Thump. Thump.

I walk fast
Praying I won't break down
For an old love

The door behind me opens
I turn
She appears
With him
But not with him

I turn
I keep walking
Wishing
Hoping
Praying
She'll call out to me

But she doesn't care
Cause she never cared
At least,
Not enough

Thump.

Does she realise
I'm looking back again
And again
And again
To see the last glimpse of her
Because I will never see her again
She will never see me again
Unless by chance

Thump.

I walk down
She walks up
In opposite directions
Will our paths cross again?

I whisper
To her retreating back

I'm sorry
You were right
I love you

Thump. Thump. Thump.


~Dedicated to Lily