I am killing myself for people who don't care about me.
I am killing myself for people who don't want to get to know me.
I am killing myself for people who will never be my friends.
I am killing myself for people who love to see me suffer.
I am killing myself for people whose life goal is to torment others.
I am killing myself for people with malicious intents.
I am killing myself for people who willingly manipulated me.
I am killing myself for people who don't matter.
I am sacrificing myself for people I will never see again in the far future.
I don't want to see myself graduate high school.
I don't want to see myself earn a degree in a field I love and achieve great things.
I don't want to meet my true love and marry him/her.
I don't want to start my own family and work in a career I enjoy.
I don't want children who would get me presents for Mother's/Father's Day and tell me they love me.
I want to miss out on seeing the world, trying new things, having exciting experiences, and otherwise have a life beyond those horrid people.
I don't want to watch my future babies grow up and achieve great things.
I don't want to spend the rest of my life with the one I love and grow old together.
I want to waste all of the love and care my parents put into bringing me into this world and raising me.
I am allowing my enemies to win because I do not want to win.
I do not want to meet people who do care about me, who love me for who I am, who matter more than the rest of the world.
I am killing myself so I do not have to learn from my mistakes and become a better, stronger person. (Because everyone makes mistakes and no one is perfect.)
I am killing myself because I choose to think about the people who hate me and ignore the people who love and care about me.
I am killing myself because life is not easy and I do not want to have to fight my way through it.
I am killing myself not to end the pain, but to deprive myself of everything life has to offer.