I Can't Sleep
Every night since "it" happened,
I can't sleep without my music.
I don't know why,
But it's like something possesses me.
Last night I tried to go without,
But when I turned off my lights,
Lay on my bed,
And closed my drooping eyes,
It was like something was holding me down.
Pushing me onto the bed,
I could hardly move.
My head began to pound,
And when it felt like I was in another universe,
My ears were closed off,
Unable to hear anything.
Anything but the sound of her screaming in pain.
Suddenly, I felt like I was falling forward,
Just like when "it" happened.
I wanted to move,
But it was like I was frozen in shock.
For five minutes I lay there,
Hearing her screams,
But I couldn't move.
Finally, after a long wait,
I was free from the bonds,
But I was still scared.
Grabbing my phone,
I flipped through until I found the right tune,
But nothing could get me out of my nightmare.
I live through it all every single day…
When I go to school…
When I go home…
Even when I am alone…
People tell us that we are lucky,
That we have our life,
But I don't see it that way.
HE took her talent,
HE took a part of his personality,
HE took my piece of mind…
I can't look at her without wincing at her scars.
I can't joke around with him like we use to.
I can't sleep without having to hear her screams…