The Lock and Key of the Memories
Standing here in the middle of the busy street wondering who I am and why I can't remember anything that happened in the past. There are bits and pieces here and there but other than that I'm lost. 'Who am I? Who was I before I lost my memory? Will I ever remember again?' I thought to myself. Then all of a sudden there was a flash. It was my hand intertwined with a man's hand and it was big compared to mine. It was strong too. I looked at my surroundings and saw nothing looks familiar at all. I wish I can be like Dorothy and click my heels three times together and say "There's no place like home."But I don't even know remember where my home is anymore. All I know is that I was in an accident but something has to have happen before that, but nobody wants to tell me. They said that it was too painful to remember and everything happens for a reason but they don't seem to be upset about it. I wish someone can tell me about it. They say that home is where your heart belongs. But where is my home?
You might be wondering where my friends are and why they aren't helping me getting through this. My sister claims that I don't have any but I tried to find pictures of when I was little I don't have any either. She claimed that I was camera shy and that I don't like pictures. I don't know anything about my parents. All I know is that they are divorced but they work in the same company and sometimes they both go on business trips together. I've been stuck in my house ever since I got back from the hospital. I had been looking for the key of my memory that's locked in my mind. But I lost the key and now I want to find it, but I don't know where to start. "Elaina? Is that you? What are you doing standing in a busy street?" The man asked. I turned around and saw those hazel eyes. Those hazel eyes looked so familiar. His hazel eyes were filled with concerned. The way he looked at me made my heartbeat quickened. "How do you know my name?" I asked him. He looked at me confused and replied "Do you not know me or something? I'm Jake." I held out my hand and touched his cheek. Tears slide down my face when he looked at me; his eyes were filled with hurt, pain and concern. "Don't cry." He comforted me and pulled me into a hug. Then he took my hand into his and intertwined it together. His hand was strong and warm. Then I had that feeling again. It was the same feeling I had earlier, when I had that flashback. Then I connect the pieces together. "I'm sorry Jake I don't remember the things that happened in the past. I lost the key to my memory. I can't remember anything. Earlier before I had a flashback of our hands intertwined together, but that's all I remember." I cried. He continued to comfort me and let me cry on his shoulder. After a little while I stopped crying and asked him the question that has been bothering me ever since I saw him. "What was our relationship?"I asked quietly. He looked at me and then back to the ground. He ran through his hair and replied "We didn't really have a relationship. We were really close. Everyone said we were perfect for each other but we wouldn't admit it. Everyone said that they could practically feel the sexual tensions between us. I don't know about you but I had a crush on you the first day I met you. I really liked you but I was afraid to tell you because I was scared that you didn't feel the same way and I would ruin our friendship. I was planning on telling you a week before your birthday but you were busy with your sister so I didn't confess to you." I was shocked. It wasn't the answer I expected. I was so shocked that I didn't know what to say. I looked into his hazel eyes and without knowing I said "I have a feeling I felt the same way but I was too scared to say anything." He looked at me shocked.
"How do you know?" He asked I smiled and said "I don't think I've ever felt this way with anyone before and I could feel the sparks too. Somehow this feeling is too familiar and every time I'm with you, you bring out most of me. I feel so comfortable with you. You make my heart flutter just by looking at me." I was rambling but I don't know why I just had to get it out of my system. His hazel eyes met my green orbs and all of sudden he kissed me. His lips were soft, I felt like it was meant to be muse together. After a while we stopped and catch our breath. "Wow" I said. He nodded and said "Yeah, wow that was way too amazing to describe it." This feeling was so mutual but also distant. I couldn't help but look at his blonde hair covering his hazel eyes and his face was light but fair skinned. He was studying me just like the way I studied him. "Will you be my girlfriend? I know this is a bad time for me to ask you to be my girlfriend but I'd understand if you say no and I'll wait till you regain your memory." He rambled
I smiled at him; he was so adorable when he was rambling. "Yes I'll be your girlfriend I know that I don't really remember any of my past but I'm sure you can walk me through the memory lane." I said. He smirked at me in a very confident way. "I knew you say yes! But then again no one can resist me." He said cockily. "Oh you're a cocky one aren't you? Well I hate to boost your ego but the only reason I said yes is because I think you might annoy me if I said no and I don't think you can stand so long waiting." I teased him. He kissed me sweetly and said "As long as it's you I can wait. I can wait as long as you want." I smiled at how sweet he is. He was too sweet to me. "You're too sweet, so tell me what do you like about me?" I asked him.
He looked into my eyes and said "A lot of things. I like how you can make me happy. I like how you make me smile and laugh, when I'm upset or angry. I also like how you can make me do the craziest things. I like how you're so kind and caring to everyone. I like how you can drive me crazy and I don't even know how." He looked at me and continued. "I like how you bite your lips when you're nervous but most importantly I like how I know you better then yourself." Once again he shocked me. "Wow you never cease to surprise me." He smirked and said "Of course it's part of my charming self." I rolled my eyes at him and shook my head. I wonder to myself how he can be so sweet and the next second so cocky. "Yeah, you're quite a charmer." I said sarcastically.
He smirked at me and I rolled my eyes. Then all of a sudden I had a déjà vu, I felt like this happened before. "Was this our thing?" He looked at me confused. "Was this our thing? You smirk and I roll my eyes? I had a déjà vu feeling just now and it felt so real too." He grinned at me and nodded his head yes. "Yeah it was our thing. People would look at us weirdly and then ignore us. We do it all the time to each other. Wow, you make fast progressed. But then again I shouldn't be surprised you were always a fast learner and you were smart too." He said "You know I still love to draw! It's like I can still draw perfectly. Those skills were never forgotten." I said breaking the silence. "You better not forget. I need you to draw a picture of me. So you can always remember my handsome face." He said cheekily while smirking. I rolled my eyes at him. He just smirked back. "One day I'm going to wipe that smirk of your face." I said to him. That damn smirk that drives me crazy and annoys the hell out of me. But it's also irresistible and I secretly love it. He looked at me amused. "I like to see you try. But anyway I like to take you out on a date tomorrow night." He said. "A date? Really? Where are you taking me?" I asked excitedly "Yes, a date and you'll find out tomorrow. I'll pick you up tomorrow night at seven." He said cryptically. "If you don't tell me then what am I suppose to wear for the date?" I asked in a very annoyed tone. He rolled his eyes and said "Wear something comfortable. Nothing fancy. Now we better get you home." I don't want to go home. I don't want to go to that empty and lonely apartment. "I don't want to go home. My mom is on a business trip with my dad and I don't want to stay with Caroline. She annoys me." I said to him. "Well you can't stay with me, I don't have any spare room and my parents will freak out. Hmmm, you can stay at Emily's. You guys can have a sleep over and you can tell her about your amnesia." He said thoughtfully. I looked at him awed. He was so thoughtful of me. I'm so touched by his thoughtfulness. He turned and saw me staring at him. "What?" He asked confused at why I was staring at him. "Nothing, it's just that you're so thoughtful and I'm so touched." I said to him. He was so sweet to me. He's such a thoughtful guy. He smirked and said "Anything for you babe." I blushed and looked away. "So who's Emily? Did I know her? Was she my friend?" I asked him curiously. "Yeah she is. She was your best friend since sixth grade. She was your first friend ever since you've been adopted and your sister doesn't like you for some reason. I met you in sixth grade too. Emily introduced us and then we started to hang out." He said. He called Emily and told her about my accident and my amnesia. "She's going to your house and you guys are going to have a sleep over." He said to me. I gave him a weird look. "Her words not mine." He added. I laughed and he drove me home. I keep bugging him about our date trying to find out where we are going.
Emily came over after I got home. We talked all night long but eventually we fell asleep. She seems like a bookworm and not adventurous at all. She is a goody two shoes. "You're an adventurous person but you don't show it. You're the golden girl of the school, you were shy and quiet but you can be loud and outgoing when you want to be. But every time when we go on an adventure you always get us in trouble. You can also get us out of trouble very easy too." I couldn't help but grin because it really sounded like me, well at least what I've been told. "What's the deal with my sister? I asked. "I mean I know that I'm adopted because she treated me like dirt. I think it's because I took over her spotlight and mom wanted me not her." I said. Emily smiled sadly at me and said "Yeah you had a tough childhood. Before when she was the only child she was daddy's little girl and still is. Her parent's relationship went downhill when she was in second grade. When they adopted you they were really happy. You were the opposite of her and you always manage to catch their attention. But then after the divorce your mom took you instead of her.Before she was the only child she can get whatever the heck she wants and just by batting her eyelashes. She was always loud too. Even though you weren't social you still manage to find friends. You were also good at making deals. Your parents were workaholic but they really liked you. It was also because of Jake. He was sweet caring and a nice guy. He hangs out with the three of us a lot. But then starting in seventh grade you guys were really close. Everyone could see you guys like each other. Then in the beginning of freshmen year you told me you like him. So that was when you started to like him. But at the time your sister was very close with him. But Jake he wasn't comfortable with your sister as he was with you." She said I smiled sheepishly and said "I might have forgotten to tell you that I and Jake are dating now. We're going on a date later. Yesterday was so sweet and nice." I sighed dreamily. "Wow, what happened? What did he say? It took you guys long enough. I mean you can practically see that you guys are made for each other. Wow I don't know what to say. Your sister is going to be pissed off. She always wanted him." She said freaking out. I snapped out of my daze and looked at her wearily. "Instead of freaking out will you please be happy for me? I mean aren't you happy that I finally got a guy that you approve of and also trust?" She sighed and then jumped up alert. "I thought you said you lost your memory." She said suspiciously. I looked at her confused. "I did say that." I said to her very confusedly. "But you just said that I should be glad that you finally got a guy that I approve and trust and I never said anything about me disapproving your choice of guys." She said. "Hmm I do remember bits and pieces. You do know that right?" I asked her. Then she thought about it for a moment and said "Oh yeah, I forgot about that." I rolled my eyes at her. "So? Details on what happened." She demanded. I rolled my eyes at her again. "I don't kiss and tell." I said. She squealed. "OMG you guys did kiss. How was it? Was it sweet? How is he to you? I bet he is so sweet—." She rambled. I cut her off and told her to breathe and she did. "Okay, he was so sweet to me. He amuses me and he always manages to surprise me somehow. I really like him and I haven't seen him for like half a day and I already miss him." She squealed again and hugged me. "I'm so happy for you. You guys are finally going out and now all you need to figure out is your memory and what cause your accident—." She trailed off. Then my iphone started to ring. I digged in my pocket for it and saw it was a message from Jake. It said 'Missed you already, can't wait for later!' I smiled at the text and replied 'I miss you too and I can't wait for later either.' "Awe looks at you all smileys. You guys are so cute. What did he say that made you smile?" Emily asked. Then took my phone and read the text. "Awe you guys are so lovely dovey. Have you decided what you are wearing for later yet?" She said. "I haven't decided yet. He said we're going to the park so wear something comfortable." I said. I looked into my closet and found my fluffy and warm jacket, peach pink sweater, my scarf and my faded skinny jeans and my uggs. "Nice match." She said approvingly. I smiled and started to get dress. I put my hair in a bun and put light make up on. "I remember telling him that I always wanted my first date to be at a park and a romantic picnic and he said that if he were the guy he would bring the food for the date and I said I would bring the dessert. I'm going to bring my sketchbook, cell phone, keys and dessert. I baked his favorite chocolate chip cookies and chocolate cake. Last night I was so upset that I didn't remember what his favorite dessert was. Then I found the cookbook Jake brought me for my birthday and then I remembered." I said smiling so happily. "Wow that is so cliché." Emily said. I stuck out my tongue to her. We talked for a while then she had to go.
A few minutes after Emily left, Jake came and picked me up and we went to the park. We went to the park and set up the blanket. "You're really sweet Jake. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world and you're like pampering me. You're the best boyfriend a girl can have." I said to him. "You deserve to be pampered and I'm the luckiest guy in the world to have a girlfriend like you and like I said before anything for you babe." He said lovingly. I giggled at him. "Did you make all this? That looks delicious." I said pointing to the sandwich. "Yeah, my mom offered to help when she heard that it was for the date I'm having with you. She got excited but I wouldn't let her help but she gave me ideas on what to make for a picnic. Sorry I didn't make dessert. I know how you love dessert as much as I but I don't know how to make desserts." He said to me. I smirked at him and said "It's okay. I came prepared. Somehow I knew you weren't going to be prepared. So I made the dessert and these are your favorites too." I brought out the desserts from my bag. "Wow, they are all our favorites too. Thank you. You probably baked this last night." He said. I picked up one of his finger sandwich and tried it. "Mmm it tastes so yummy." I said to him. He looked so relieved and his eyes were dancing of excitement. He tried to take one of the desserts but I slapped his hand away. He pouted like a five year old and I rolled my eyes. "You have to eat food before dessert. Eat the sandwiches first then you can eat the dessert." I scold at him. He listened and ate his sandwich. After we finished the sandwiches, he got started on the cake. It was a small cake; you can only divide the cake in three. We both ate a piece and spilt the third piece in half. Then he lay down on the blanket and closed his eyes. He looked so peaceful, so I decided to get out my sketchbook and draw. After a while I was so into my drawing that I didn't notice that Jake was sitting next to me watching me draw a picture of him. "That's nice I like it." He said after I finished. I blushed at the compliment and said "Thanks, it's just a sketch." He tooled the book and look at my recent drawings. The book was full of picture of him and the flashbacks I had. "You remember this?" he asked pointing to the first flashback picture I had. It was our hands entwining together and me looking down at our hands. He was secretly grinning like a fool when I was pretending not to notice his smile. "Yeah I remembered it was a happy memory. I remember other things too. But I remember this best. "I said to him while smiling dreamily. He gently kissed me and I kissed him back. After we came up for air we leaned our foreheads on each other. "This is the best date that I'll ever remember" I said to him. Then all of a sudden it was blurry and I felt dizzy. Then it went all black.
I woke up in a hospital again but this time I remembered. I remember everything. I got in a car crash because of my sister. My evil sister rewired the car after I learned everything that happened. How my mom was my real mom and she was my half sister. On my mom's first marriage she had my sister then got divorced and gave my sister to my sister's dad and she would visit her every now and then. On my mom's second marriage she had me. But my sister lost me when I was father died in a car crash two years later. Two years later my mom remarried my sister's dad. She went looking for me and she finally did. But then she adopted me when I was 11 and never told me she was my real mother. My sister tried to hurt me. I left the house to go to Jake's. But I got in an accident. I fell asleep again, and then when I woke up I found Jake sleeping on the chair I reached out and stroke his hair. Then he started to stir. "Hey how are you feeling? You scared me yesterday after you fainted. I rushed you to the hospital and I wouldn't leave your side." he rambled. I smiled at his rambling, has been hanging out with me too much. I held his hand said "I'm fine. I remembered everything. I remember what happened before and after the accident." I told him what happened and he just sat there and listened patiently. It was very comforting to me. "Wow that was one heck of a story. Its okay your sister is just jealous of you but I can't believe she would do that. Then again she had a rough childhood. I mean you got everything she ever wanted. "He said."Yeah well she wasn't the only one. I was send to different foster care. The foster care didn't want me anymore. So they send me to an orphanage. Do you know how hard it is to be rejected over and over again? Do you know what it was like to be making fun of in school? Do you know what it was like to be envious of other people that has been adopted and that has parents? Do you? No you don't! People shouldn't be sympathetic of her. No one wants sympathy. "I cried. Remembering those unwanted memories made me cry. It broke my heart to think about them again. To be a memory I always wanted to block out of those memories. But no matter how much I want to forget it, I can't! Those memories are inside my brain and its part of me like a tattoo that will never fade. I continued to cry and think about those memories. I can't forgive someone that tried to hurt me. I've been hurt enough. I cried myself to sleep and Jake was there comforting me.
When I woke up I saw Jake and Bianca. I stared at my sister. "Hey you're awake! Bianca wanted to see you." Jake said. I looked away from her. "I'm sorry Elaina I really am, I swear it was an accident." she said. I looked into her eyes and saw hatred towards me. "No you're not. You hate me. You can drop the innocent act." I said and looked at her sadly. "Don't you remember what you said to me when I had amnesia? Should I repeat it?" I asked. I remember perfectly what had happened that day; it was as if it just happened yesterday. I was waiting for Jake to pick me up then all of a sudden there was a bang at the door I opened and saw it was Bianca. 'So I heard you lost your memory Elaina.' She said to me rudely. I looked at her confused and said 'Yeah I did.' 'Oh cut the act nobody is going to care about you. If you do have amnesia well then its karma and this is your payback. Payback is a bitch.' She said haughtily and walked out the door leaving me standing there shocked at what just happened. "I don't know what you're talking about." she said innocently. "You said 'drop the innocent golden girl act 'cause I know you're not innocent and if you do have amnesia well good for you! You deserve it. its call karma because you don't deserve anything that you stole from me.' those words shocked me and hurt me so much I don't know how I can be related to a cold blooded sister like you." she looked at me haughtily and said "We're not even related so don't be too emotional there." I rolled my eyes and said "are you serious? You never wonder why mom treated me better then you? You always reminded her of your dad and I'm her child too. Which means imp your half sister? Your two years older than me and when we were little you lost me. I found mom's diary and read It." she was shocked. She stormed out of the room angry. "Wow, that went well." he said to me. "Yeah it went so well." I muttered sarcastically.
The next couple of days I stayed at the hospital recovering. Then after a few days I went home. My mom was home and she was sitting on the couch waiting for me. "So I guessed you found out that you are related to me huh?" She asked quietly. I opened my mouth then closed it. I didn't know what to say. I just nodded my head. She sighed. "Your sister was always like her father and you were a mix of me and your father. When I found you I was super excited and I was afraid to tell you because you might blame me for losing you." She said sadly. I smiled genuinely at her and said "It's okay mom, thank you for looking for me and not giving up on me. Also you were a good mom you supported me in everything. I was shocked when I found out but I don't blame you for anything." She smiled at me and shook her head. Then she cried out "You deserve much better." She cried her heart out and I sat down next to her and comfort her. I told her what had happened with Bianca and she was shocked but she wasn't surprise because it sounded like her.
A month past, Jake and I's relationship was stronger than ever. I remembered everything. I'm not so sure if I'm willing to forgive and forget what happened with Bianca. I don't think she cares either. Oh well if she doesn't then that's her problem not mine. Maybe one of these days I will forgive her just not now. Everything seems so perfect now. I have a good relationship with my mother. I have an awesome boyfriend and I remember everything. Me and Emily are like sisters and do a lot of things together. I have everything I've always wanted. Even though I had to go through mistakes, problems, worries and obstacles; I will never ever forget nor regret everything that has happened.