Wake up

I do not want to wake up
Today and feel like breaking down.
I do not want my feet on the ground
To have to fall beneath me.

I do not want to breatht the air
And taste a poison on my tongue.
I do not want to speak these words
To have you think I am lying.

I do not want to feel my mind
Lose all of its grasp.
I long to just be fine because
I am, but I do not agree.