Hey there, I'm back! I know it's been a while since I've posted, but I've wrote a bunch of new stuff while I was away. Here's the first! Enjoy.
There is something inside of me, and it has been there for as long as I can remember.
It is vile, cold, and unforgiving, seeking out even the tiniest bit of hope and crushing it in its clawed fist.
It tells me that it is a part of me, that it is the only thing I can trust, and that it will lead me to everything I've wanted.
I believe it for a very long time, doing as it says without question, bringing pain to an already broken world in the hopes of my own survival.
I let it consume me, choking my heart and fogging up my mind, feeding off of the destruction I have caused.
It blames me for what has happened, tells me that I should feel ashamed, and I do.
But when I finally see the sorrow and fear on the faces around me, the hurt and sickness I have put upon myself, something changes.
When I look in the mirror, I no longer see a pitiful, wretched creature, but a human who has a darkness locked deep within her.
I notice how it writhes and hisses in the presence of the light, terrified to lose its hold over me; a shadow afraid to be seen for what it really is.
I know now that it is not a guiding spirit, but an evil presence that has caused me more misery than I can bear.
It is time for this to end, I think, slashing myself open and exposing it to the burning brightness.
It retreats into a deep corner of my heart, somewhere where it can heal itself and curse me from hiding.
I feel pain now, and I know the thing will return, but it will never again control me.
Thank you for reading! Please leave a review and tell me what you thought, or feel free to check out the other stuff I've written.