"So you actually remembered to call us Kyle." Kelly started. I emptied out my pockets and tossed everything onto my computer desk and I made my way over to my bed.
"He did the right thing by calling us, or else we'll bomb his house remember?" Tracy added.
"Geez, thanks Tracy." I replied and I laid down on my bed as I relaxed my body. Oh god, my bed never felt this comfortable for so long I thought as I stretched out my body. I'm relieved, I don't know when the last time I had a conversation like this with Tracy and Kelly. It's been forever especially after the whole incident with Allison and I.
"But anyways, let's get down to business!" Tracy exclaimed. "Come to the dance that's happening next Friday."
"What dance?" I asked, confused. We have a dance to go to? Since when?
"Oh geez Kyle, you've been out of school for so long that you don't even know what's going on anymore!" Tracy replied.
"What Tracy is trying to say is the masquerade dance that's happening next week at school." Kelly finished her comment.
"Oh, since when was there a dance going on at school?" I asked.
"Oh Kyle, you're so clueless sometimes." Tracy replied. "We always have one around this time of year."
"You're right." I replied, in a tone of voice to tell them that I really didn't care about a dance at school.
"How come it sounds like you don't care?" Kelly asked and I sighed.
"Because I don't." I replied and then I heard a gasping sound on the other end of the line, most likely Tracy I thought.
"You don't care?! How could you?"
"Tracy..." I started, "I don't think I would be going this year. You always dragged me to go in the previous years and boy do I hate you. Do you know how many girls are on me last year? It's ridiculous, and you just stand there laughing at me." I told her, in rage.
"Hehe," Tracy giggled. "But really, you should go this year, you're not going to regret it."
"That's what you said last year Tracy." I replied with a sigh.
"I promise, Allison is going this year." Oh, now we're talking Tracy.
"Tracy," Kelly started. "Allison didn't say she was going to come for sure."
"Kelly, who do you think I am? I have my ways of convincing her okay?" Tracy replied.
"Tracy..." Kelly started.
"Well Kyle, you have to come okay?" Tracy interrupted Kelly and I sighed.
"I'll see okay? I can't guarantee that I can make it because of Rachel." I told her.
"How is Rachel anyways?" Kelly asked.
"What? How did this conversation suddenly change?!" Tracy exclaimed but we ignored her.
"She's fine. Chemotherapy is actually showing some results but it makes her really weak and ill." I replied.
"Must be tough eh?" Kelly added and I sighed. Yeah, it's probably really tough for her. I can't imagine me going through chemotherapy especially being under all that radiation.
"Take Rachel to the dance!" Tracy exclaimed and I literally felt like Kelly and I just face palmed. Really Tracy? You're still on that topic?
"That's impossible, do you think that Rachel could go to a dance in her condition?" I started.
"Yes." Tracy replied, what is this girl thinking? "She managed to come to the musical today, I'm sure she's able to go to a dance."
"Tracy, that's crazy." I replied. "A dance with sweaty and humid condition is different from a sitting and relax environment."
"I'm sure she would want to go." Tracy added.
"How do you know?"
"I'm a girl, trust me."
"Tracy, I'm a girl too and I don't get where you're trying to go with this." Kelly placed her comment.
"God! Why are you two going against me?! Kyle, just ask Rachel!" I sighed.
"Ask!" Tracy exclaimed and I sighed once again.
"Okay fine, I will!" I replied.
"But do you really think that Allison would go to the dance?" Kelly started.
"What do you mean?" Tracy asked.
"She seemed really iffy about it when we asked her before." She replied.
"Don't worry, I'll convince her! Don't you want to see Allison and Kyle back to the way they were?" Tracy suggested and my heart felt a sudden stab. Why? Why did my heart just hurt? Because I was thinking about Allison and I? How we grew apart?
"You don't have to Tracy." I started "Allison is probably having a difficult time seeing me isn't she?"
"Kyle..." Kelly started.
"Plus, I don't even know how she feels anymore. I think I'm already prepared to hear the worse from her all over again but just somewhere in my heart, I feel that there's still hope between us."
"There is!" Tracy exclaimed.
"Tracy!" Kelly yelled at her. I knew that both Tracy and Kelly knew something but even if they are the one that tells me everything about Allison, I don't know if I would believe it until I hear it from Allison herself.
"Oops," Tracy apologized. "But Kyle, don't give up on Allison."
"I don't know what to do." I replied.
"Kyle," Kelly started, "we shouldn't be in your business so all Tracy and I could do is listen to both you and Allison and give you two the best advice we could possibly give. Whatever the case may be, you should just decide what you want to do and then just do it."
"I know, but the last time I decided on what to do, it ended up not being pretty." I replied.
"But that doesn't mean you should just give up." Kelly replied and I sighed.
"I know. I let the emotions get the best of me." I replied.
"So you should try again!" Tracy added.
"Yeah, I agree." Kelly replied "Maybe the results are different this time." I sighed heavily and I didn't say anything as I absorbed everything that was said in. Is it possible that the result would be different? Or would I just be delusional? I don't know, but what is it am I suppose to be doing? What do I need to do for me to fix the relationship I have with Allison?
"Kyle?" Tracy started and I snapped out of my chain of thought. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah sorry I was just thinking." I replied.
"What were you thinking about?" Kelly asked.
"I was just thinking about what I should do." I replied.
"And?" Tracy asked.
"And I want Allison back." I replied, with confidence. I now know what I really want and in order for me to do that I have to do something about this engagement thing I have with Rachel. If telling Allison directly doesn't work, then I have to go right to the problem. My parents and Uncle Martin. I need to talk to them, I need to tell them how I feel and hope that they'll understand. I need to talk to them before I talk to Rachel about it because Rachel is going to be the most difficult person I need to talk to about this problem.
"And how are you planning to do that?" Kelly asked.
"I'm currently thinking about a plan." I replied with a smile on my face. I never felt this confident in awhile, for some reason I feel like this time everything is going to be alright. I just want to feel that way, I want to get Allison back no matter how hard it is.
"And I'll try my best to convince Allison to go to that dance! I think that's the perfect opportunity for you two to make up!" Tracy exclaimed and once again I felt Kelly and I doing a face palm.
"Well, I think I'll talk to you two later. I just want to be alone right now and think things through." I replied.
"Okay," Kelly started. "It was great talking to you again Kyle. It feels like to be able to talk to you like this without you closing yourself off."
"I know! Do you know how depressed you were?!" Tracy exclaimed.
"Yeah I know, I'm sorry. I just let everything get the best of me I suppose. I never felt such heartbreak before so I guess I wasn't prepared."
"It's okay." Kelly replied, "as long as you're fine now. I like that you're back now Kyle."
"Yeah, I couldn't agree more." Tracy agreed and I smiled.
"See you." I replied and I hung up the phone. I laid on my bed while staring up at the ceiling. My mind has never felt so clear before and my heart and shoulders felt light. I know what I have to do, I really know what I have to do in order to get Allison back.
It was now a new week and once again I wasn't at school but at the hospital with Rachel. Each day Rachel's condition is getting better even if it's the slightest bit, which of course I am happy about. However how was I suppose to tell Rachel about breaking the engagement off with her? Or a matter yet about the school dance, should I even ask her? I took my glasses off as I relaxed them from all the straining it caused from looking at the laptop for too long. I glanced over at Rachel in her bed as she was reading a book and she was smirking at what she was reading.
"Funny?" I started and she quickly looked up at me and she smiled brightly at me.
"Yeah, it is quite funny." She replied immediately and then she just stared directly into my eyes as if there was something she wants to say.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked and then she sighed.
"Kyle, I want to talk to you about something." She started.
"What is it?" I asked.
"I asked Dr. Taylor if it was okay for me to attend school this week." What? Is she crazy? What on earth is she thinking?!
"What? No." I immediately rejected her idea.
"I want to get out of here Kyle. It's too stuffy in here, I can't stay here."
"What did Dr. Taylor say?"
"She said that it wasn't a good idea."
"Good, then just listen to her." I told her.
"But she said it's fine if I was staying at home."
"So you're going to stay at home from now on?" She nodded and I sighed.
"Why haven't you talked to me about this?" I asked her and she shrugged.
"I don't know." She replied "Probably because I know that you're not going to like the idea of it. But I talked to my dad about it."
"And he's fine with it?" She nodded again.
"Although he didn't like the idea of it in the beginning, but I somehow convinced him."
"Why do you want to do back to school?" I asked and she just sighed.
"I miss going to school. I miss being just a regular, healthy girl." She replied. "There's so much I wish I could do if I was healthy and it sucks that I'm not." I sighed, what was I suppose to say to that? There was nothing I could say to comfort her nor was there anything I could do so that she doesn't think the way she does. Then it finally hit me, the school dance coming up this Friday. Is it even a good idea to ask her? No, I shouldn't encourage her to expose herself out with all the bacteria since she's so prone on getting ill from it.
"When are you getting discharged?" I asked, trying to get the whole dance idea out of my head but clearly it isn't working.
"Tonight." Rachel replied. "When my Dad gets off work, he'll get me then."
"I see," I replied and the dance idea is still floating around in my head.
"You don't have to stay all day today Kyle." Rachel started and I looked at her, wow this is the first time that she's actually letting me go, what a surprise. "I want to have some alone time with my Dad, you know, I haven't really been with him for a while and it seems like I don't have much time left with him."
"Don't say that Rachel." I replied and she sighed, looking sad.
"I really don't know what I'll do without you Kyle." She replied as she started fiddling with his fingers, "I really like it that you're by my side all the time." Guilt trip? I feel terrible, especially now that I know that I will break off the engagement, a nice and clean cut hopefully. I finally understand that I don't need to be a finacee to Rachel in order for me to love and care for her. I can care for her as a friend, and support her in every way possible. It doesn't mean that I have to be suffering and parted from the one I love, I just hope that Rachel would get it when I tell her.
"I'll always be there for you Rachel, no matter what." I replied, I guess this is the best thing I could say to her. I watched Rachel as she picked back up her book and she continued to read where she had left off. Should I ask her to the dance? A part of me is telling me no, but deep down I want her to go, I want her to enjoy herself just in case that this is really the end of her life. I believe that Rachel would enjoy the dance and she would love it. I guess that once in awhile I should really just drop the protective trait in me and just let Rachel enjoy her life right?
"Rachel," I started and Rachel looked at me, "do you want to go to the school dance on Friday?" She looked at me, taken back that I actually suggested something so ridiculous.
"Did I just hear something wrong coming out of your mouth?" She started and I slowly shook my head. "Are you being serious?" She asked and I nodded my head, then the biggest smile on Rachel face shined the entire room.
"Yes! I'll love to! I really want to go! I never been to a dance with you Kyle!" Rachel exclaimed in happiness.
"Well, that's good. I suppose that you should get the approval from Dr. Taylor and your father first, don't you think so?" I suggested and she pouted.
"That's quite a difficult task isn't it?" I nodded and she sighed. "Well, I guess I will have to try my best to convince them."
"But if it's a no, then it's a no okay?" I replied and she nodded.
"Watch, I'll get them to let me go! I can't wait!" She smiled at me and I smiled back at her. I wonder if this was a good idea, was it a good idea for me to let her go? Yeah, I guess so right? I mean, we all get to live once so might as well live it to the way you want to live it. I know that Rachel hates being in the hospital but she didn't have a choice since her body was so weak, although she's slightly getting better, her body is still very weak and could collapse anytime. But right now, all that matters to me is that Rachel is happy because I know she wouldn't be very soon.
Surprisingly, the week flew by in an instant and it is finally Friday morning, the day of the dance. For the entire week I struggled to talk to my parents as well as Uncle Martin about the engagement because I didn't know how I was going to say it to them. I sighed at the thought of this difficult task that I need to do. I crawled out of bed and made my way into the bathroom to wash up and change before I made my way downstairs into the kitchen. Once in the kitchen, I was surprised to see my parents here at home. My Dad is sitting at the dinner table with a cup of coffee in his hand while he read the morning papers with some documents resting on the table. My Mom was cooking breakfast while James probably went on a walk with Snowball, while Brandon is still asleep. It was weird to see them both here as I'm usually greeted by James, why are they still here? My Dad is rarely home because of the company and his workaholic personality, my Mom usually has events here and there with her friends as well as many of her charity work she does.
"Oh good morning Kyle," My Mom greeted me when she saw me entering the kitchen. "Have a seat at the table, breakfast is almost ready."
"Good morning Mom, Dad" I greeted and made my way over to the coffee machine to help myself to a cup. "What's the occasion?" I started "you two are never here for breakfast."
"Well I guess it does seem weird doesn't it?" My Mom replied as she cracked an egg into the pan. "But I suppose everyone needs a break don't they? Especially your Dad so I made him take a day off and spend the day with me." Romantic much? I thought as I took a sip of my coffee while leaning against the counter.
"Are you going to Rachel's house later again?" My Dad started and I looked over at him as he was looking directly at me.
"Most likely," I replied. "Is there something you want me to do?" I asked and then I immediately regretted it, I shouldn't have said anything.
"Yes," My Dad replied, "I want you to go to the company today and attend the board of director meeting. I also want you to go meet with a new artist I scouted and finish the details with her. She's an amazing singer so I don't want to lose her." My Dad started and he handed me the documents that were on the table beside him, "the contract and everything are here so just review them beforehand." I regret asking very much, even though he probably would have told me to do it even without me asking. I sighed heavily at the thought of working but I'm glad that my Dad is taking some time off. Working so much is so straining on his body and plus I don't remember when the last time my Dad took a day off to spend with Mom. I made my way over towards him and grabbed the documents in his hand and I opened it and skimped through it briefly.
"This better be all I have to do today." I replied and I closed the file. "There better not be a mountain of work on my desk when I get to the company."
"Do you have something to do today?" He asked and I nodded.
"I was planning to take Rachel out tonight." I replied
"Be careful then." My Dad replied, "you know how weak Rachel is right now."
"I know, I will." I replied.
"Come on boys," my Mom came over to join us with plates of food in her hand. "Let's talk about work later and just enjoy our breakfast, it's been forever since we sat down and ate like this." She put the plate of food down in front of my Dad and another one in front of my seat before she went back to get her plate. I sat down in my seat as I watched my Dad digging in already. It's true, when was the last time we all sat down to eat like this? My Mom came back to the table and she sat down across from me with her plate of food, is this the best time to talk to them about the engagement? Yes, I have to or else I don't know when I'll have this opportunity to really sit down and talk to them.
"Helen," My Dad started before I could open my mouth. "How are things with the engagement?"
"Everything is going smoothly, however the venue is the problem." She replied.
"I see, what's wrong with the venue?" He asked again.
"Mom, Dad" I interrupted her and they looked at me while I looked back at them. I sighed deeply, well here goes I thought, "I want to talk to you two about the engagement."
"You're finally putting some thought into the engagement?" My Dad started and I nodded.
"Well, let's hear them." My Mom added. I stared at them as they were waiting for my reply.
"I want to break the engagement off." I told them and I watched them as their expression changed, shocked to hear what I just said.
"What are you saying?!" My Dad shouted. "What is this nonsense?!"
"Honey, calm down." My Mom started. "I'm sure Kyle has his reasons, let's just hear what he has to say."
"You better have a good explanation Kyle." My Dad glared at me and I don't blame him for being this angry. My Dad and Uncle Martin has been friends since forever and my Dad is someone honest and trustworthy, if he promises something he would keep it to the end. For me to say that I want to break off the engagement is probably like me slapping him in the face.
"I'm not happy, I'm suffering." I started and they waited for me to continue, the room filled with tension. "When I first accepted this whole engagement idea, it was for the sole purpose of encourage Rachel and just to be there for her. I never thought things through nor did I think about the consequences. I never knew that this engagement would bring so much hardship and pain, I never thought about how other people are feeling around me and ultimately, I've lost and hurt the one I love the most."
"So you're just going to abandon Rachel just like that?" My Dad asked and I shook my head.
"No, I'm not." I replied. "I thought things through for the past few weeks, this whole engagement thing caused me to not be myself, I was a cold, heartless person and I'm not like that. I was always calm and collected but ever since this whole engagement thing I found myself losing my temper easily, drowning myself in the company work when you know how much I hate doing it when I'm in school. I took my anger out on Rachel as well as the both of you and even James." I pause as I watched them absorb everything in. "Don't get me wrong, but I do love and care for Rachel but not in any romantic way. This is unfair for Rachel as I don't want to lie to her anymore and lie to myself. Let's say that Rachel does win against cancer and we do get engagement and married, what kind of life would Rachel be living? How do you think I would be living? How would she feel to live with someone that doesn't love her the way she loves me? There are other ways of supporting and caring for Rachel, and I think that being a fiancee isn't that way to go. I want to be there for her as a friend, a very close and dear friend."
"Have you spoken with Martin about this yet?" My Dad asked and I shook my again once again.
"I thought that I would talk to the two of you first." I replied.
"Is this what you truly want Kyle?" My Mom asked and I nodded.
"I know this looks bad on us, but I was too rash in making the decision and I paid the price for it. I just want to fix everything and be honest with myself as well as everyone around me." I replied.
"Why didn't you tell us sooner?" My Mom asked.
"I couldn't." I replied. "I didn't know what I was doing nor did I know what to do and I lost my way. I just wanted to fulfill what Rachel wanted because I thought that was the only way I could support her and convince her to get treatment." My Dad shot up from his seat, not even finished his breakfast and he glared down at me without saying a word for the longest time.
"Hurry and settle things with Martin and Rachel." He started, "and apologize to them for your foolishness." He added before he stormed out of the kitchen.
"He may not seem like it, but he was really worried about you and your actions lately." My Mom started and I looked over at her, she smiled kindly at me. "I was also very worried about you Kyle, but I'm glad that you told us everything and how you felt."
"Mom..." I started, what am I suppose to say to that?
"Don't worry about your father, he understands." My Mom continued as she started eating her breakfast again. "Her name's Allison wasn't it?" I stared at my Mom, taken back at what she just said.
"Thanks Mom." I replied and she gave me a kind smile but didn't say anything else as she continue munching on her food. Well, that went better than I expected I thought but then I smiled at the thought that everything seems like it will soon be back to the way it was.
"Good evening Mr. Freeman." I started as soon as Uncle Martin opened the door for me.
"Ah Kyle, please just drop the formalities with me and come in." He replied, moving aside so that I could enter.
"Well, Rachel is still getting ready in her room." Uncle Martin started. "Make yourself a home while I go grab you a drink."
"Yes thank you." I replied and then he disappeared down the hallway as I made my way over into the living room and sat down on the sofa. Momentarily, Uncle Martin returned with two cups in his hand and he handed me one.
"Coffee okay?" He asked and I nodded, taking the cup out of his hand and into mine.
"Yes thank you." I replied.
"It's been awhile since I've seen Rachel this joyful." Uncle Martin started as he sat down on the sofa across from me.
"I know." I replied. "Thank you for letting Rachel go tonight, I know this was a crazy idea."
"No, I know that you'll take good care of her and watch her carefully." He replied, taking a sip of his coffee. I gulped and then sighed heavily, well here goes round two I thought and I stared at him.
"Uncle Martin," I started and then he looked right back at me. "There's something I would like to discuss with you, a very serious matter." I told him and he just continued looking at me before he let out a sigh and got up from his seat.
"Let's go to my office shall we?" He started and then he made his way out of the living room. I got up from my seat as well and followed him into his office, shutting the door behind us.
"I want to talk to you about Rachel and I" I started and Uncle Martin stared at me, waiting for me to continue. "I would like to tell you that I'm breaking the engagement off with Rachel." I continued to observe Uncle Martin to see his reaction on how he's going to take it but his expression never changed.
"Don't worry, I understand." He replied, smiling kindly at me. Huh? What? What's going on? How come he seems to know that this conversation was coming? Did my parents tell him already?
"You're...you're not disappointed?" I asked and he chuckled.
"Of course I'm disappointed Kyle, I've liked you ever since you were a kid. I always thought that you and Rachel would be together." He replied.
"I'm very sorry Uncle Martin." I apologized and he shook his head in disagreement.
"No, I should be the one that's sorry. This whole stupid engagement thing was just a big problem, especially for you Kyle."
"What do you mean?"
"Ever since we first arrived at your house a few months ago, I knew that you were in love with that girl that was at your house at the time. So when the engagement proposal was suggested, I knew for sure that you'll reject it but I was surprised that you accepted. So then I just thought that I just imagined it. After seeing your actions and behaviour during this whole course of time, I realized that I wasn't imagining it and that you'll come to tell me that you want to break the engagement off sooner or later. Also when she came to the hospital on the day Rachel fainted, I knew for certain that the two of you are in love with each other." Wait, is this what the strange feeling I felt when I was talking to Uncle Martin outside of Rachel's room in the hospital that day? He knew? He felt everything? "So Kyle, I'm terribly sorry, I know this caused you a lot of pain and suffering."
"No, I still think I should be apologizing." I replied.
"It's okay Kyle." He smiled kindly at me and I wanted to force myself to smile back at him but I couldn't. "I'll tell Rachel about this, I don't want to cause you anymore burden and suffering Kyle."
"No," I shook my head. "I feel like I should be the one to tell her. That's the least I could do, I need to tell her personally and apologize to her." Uncle Martin stared at me and I stared right back at him, neither of us said a word. Uncle Martin finally let out a sigh and then smiled immediately afterwards.
"I can't win against you." He started and I gave him a weak smile.
"Thank you." I replied.
"She loves you Kyle." Uncle Martin started, what? Who? I stared at him, wondering what he was talking about. "That girl, Allison, she's in love with you."
"How do you know?" I asked, curious.
"I have my ways of knowing Kyle." He replied, "I know that the girl, Allison is very much in love with you."
"Kyle!" I heard Rachel's voice outside of the room "Where are you?!" I waited for Uncle Martin to continue, hoping that he would say more. How would Uncle Martin know that Allison is in love with me? How did he even know Allison's name? Did Rachel say something to him?
"Well, I suppose I should get going." I replied as I made my way to the door. "I'll watch Rachel carefully and take her back home safely."
"Kyle," Uncle Martin started before I could open the door. "Thank you so much for all you've done for Rachel. I know you've suffered but I'm glad that you're happy, you deserve to be happy." I stared at him and then I let out a smile and said nothing to him. I turned the doorknob and exited the room and saw Rachel smiling brightly at me and I smiled right back at her. Her smile, something seems off but I don't know what it is and I can't figure it out. Am I just imagining it and over reacting?
"Let's go!" I exclaimed and I walked over towards her. "You look lovely." I complemented her, she was in a nice black cocktail dress that fitted her perfectly.
"And you look quite handsome tonight." She replied, linking her arms into mine. I smiled down at her as she smiled brightly back up at me. I shouldn't tell her about the engagement tonight, she seems too happy and I don't want to destroy that smile on her face, there's no way I can because Rachel, she also deserves happiness.
The school gymnasium, where the dance was held at, was packed by the time we got there. The music pounded and echoed throughout the entire gym, everyone was already in the dancing mood.
"Come on, put on your mask!" Rachel shouted over the music and into my ears. Rachel already had her black lacy half mask on as she was putting it on in the car and she handed me a white half mask and she put it on for me. "Let's go!" She shouted as she dragged me deeper into the gym. I took this opportunity to scan through the crowd, hoping that I would catch glimpse of Allison. I know that Kelly and Tracy told me that they'll force Allison to come, but they did succeed? I don't know as I never heard from them since. Damn the student council, who's idea was it to have a masquerade dance? I can't recognize Allison like this, is she even here? Where is Tracy and Kelly? I thought to myself as I continued to scan through the crowd. Soon, Rachel's so-called friends from school immediately recognized us as they bombarded her. I kept a close eye on her as her 'friends' dragged her into the dance floor and Rachel showed no resistance. I watched her as she started to dance and laugh her way through the night. I'm glad that she's having a great time, but I don't think that she should get too crazy. I made my way through the crowd and I finally squeezed my way through.
"Don't go overboard okay?" I shouted into her ears and she nodded.
"Come on, stop being so stingy and relax. Dance!" She shouted back as she picked up my arms and moved them around. However right now, I'm not in the mood to dance. Actually to be honest, I'm not really a fan of dances either especially if my mind isn't into it. I sighed as I released my arm free from Rachel's grasp.
"Enjoy yourself with your friends." I shouted into Rachel's ear. "I want to go catch up with some of my friends." I told her and she pouted but she understands that I haven't seen them in awhile so she nodded. I squeezed myself out of the crazy dance crowd and I made my way over to a free space, a space where I could at least breathe and not get stuffy. I leaned against the wall of the gym and I just kept an eye on Rachel from a distance. Well, at least she's having a great time right? It doesn't matter if I'm having fun or not.
I didn't know how long I stood in my spot for, but the entire time I was either watching over Rachel or I took the time to scan through the crowd for Allison, or even Tracy and Kelly. Of course, it wasn't very successful, maybe Allison really didn't come after all. I focused my attention back onto Rachel and I saw her making her way out of the crowd and heading towards me. Something's wrong I immediately thought as I saw her losing balance and she wasn't walking straight. I dashed over towards her and I supported her with my body as she leaned against me.
"Rachel! What's wrong?" I shouted and she looked up at me. Shit, she looks terrible, I was careless and I told myself that I would take care of her and keep an eye on her. "Are you okay? Come on I'll take you home." Rachel shook her head.
"No," She shouted back. "I'm fine. I just want to go to the bathroom." I slowly led her out of the gym and into the hallway, where a gulf of fresh air came rushing into my nose, oh this free nice. I never knew how stuffy the gym was until I came out into the hall.
"Are you okay?" I asked her again and she nodded.
"Yeah, I should just cool down a bit. I was just a little bit light headed in there. Maybe I just danced too much and it was very stuffy in there." She replied and I made my way to the nearest girl's bathroom.
"I'll take you home." I told her and she shook her head once again.
"I'll be fine after I go to the bathroom." She replied and she lifted herself off of me and supported herself on her own two feet. "Just wait here, I'll be right out." She instructed and then she pushed the doors opened to the girl's bathroom and disappeared. Shit I thought, I'm worried. How could I be this careless? This was totally a bad idea from the very beginning I thought to myself and I leaned against the wall in the hallway across from the girl's bathroom. I know that she's probably in there feeling really ill but what am I going to do? Charge into the girl's bathroom?
"Kyle?" I heard someone calling my name and I quickly turned to the direction to see who it was and to my surprise it was Tracy and Kelly. "Is that you Kyle?" Tracy asked.
"Hey, I never knew you two were here." I started and they made their way over towards me.
"I never expected you to be here." Tracy started.
"Yeah, I'm here with Rachel." I told her and then her face lit up.
"Oh yeah!" She exclaimed. "Allison's here." What? She is? Tracy actually convinced Allison to come? My heart started to race, I can't believe it, I never imagined that I would see Allison here tonight.
"Where is she?" I immediately asked her.
"She's probably outside at the back of the school, you might find her out there since she went out there to get some fresh air." Tracy told me and then I started walking down the hallway. Shit Kyle, you're such an asshole. Rachel's here with you and you wanted to leave her especially when I know she's not feeling well? I turned back around and both Kelly and Tracy were staring at me.
"Can you two do me a favour and go in there to check up on Rachel? I'm worried, she's not feeling well." I asked and they nodded.
"Are you going to see Allison?" Kelly asked and I nodded.
"I have to, I have something I need to tell her." I replied and they smiled.
"We'll catch up with you later." Kelly replied and then they went into the girl's bathroom. I immediately bolted down the hallway towards the back of the school and I swung the doors opened, breathing in the cool air and I quickly scanned the scenery to see if I could find Allison. My heart skipped a beat when I saw a girl making her way towards the big oak tree at the back of the school and then she stopped as soon as she was underneath it, Allison? I thought to myself and I raced over there. As I approached the girl, I finally figured out that it was Allison and she looked lovely. She was in a short maroon coloured dress with a silky black belt wrapping her waist. I never seen her dressed like this before, it caused my heart to race and soon I was in arms reach of her and she still doesn't know that I was there. Oh god, I haven't talked to Allison in so long that I'm nervous, what do I say to her?
"It's nice out here isn't it?" I finally spoke and then she turned around, shocked to see me.
"Kyle?" She started and I slowly approached her. I could feel her, I could feel her warmth, her breathe, everything, that's how close I am to her, I never been so close to her like this for so long.
"You look so different, I could barely recognize you." I started, "you look beautiful." I lifted my hand up towards her head as I tucked away a strand of hair behind her ear. "I wonder how I could miss you the entire night." Yes, because I never expected her to be here nor did I expect her to be dressed like this. It must have been Tracy and Kelly's handy job and they did an amazing job.
"What-what are you doing here? Where's Rachel?" She shuttered.
"I'm here with Rachel. But I seriously didn't think that you'll be here too."
"Shouldn't you be with her?" She asked and I shook my head.
"I asked Tracy and Kelly to take care of her for me for awhile. I really wanted to talk to you, Tracy told me I might find you out here." I explained and she looked shyly away.
"Oh." She replied, and then nothing else came out of her mouth. What is she thinking? I don't know but all I know is that I need to tell her that I love her.
"I've missed you Allison, I really missed you." I started.
"No, Allison please. Let me talk." I interrupted her. "I've been doing a lot of thinking these past few weeks, thinking about the relationship I have with Rachel, thinking about you, thinking about us." I paused and I looked directly into Allison's eyes, just hoping that she would give me clues on how she feels about me. "But no matter how much I think about it, it's not right. The whole thing with Rachel, I can't get engaged to her because I love you." Suddenly I saw it in her eyes, her eyes started to soften, as if she was glad to hear it. I knew it, she was just denying it all this time and making herself suffer. But her eyes didn't lie to me this time, she was telling the truth and this is all I wanted to see from her.
"Kyle, you can't do that to Rachel, Rachel only has you as support."
"No, you're wrong Allison." I gently picked up her hands and held them tightly in mine. "She has my parents, her Dad, and me, me as a friend, not a fiancee. I've talked to my parents as well as Rachel's Dad. We're not going through with the engagement anymore, I'm calling the engagement off and they agreed to it."
"And Rachel's okay with it?" She argued. "She's in love with you, she wouldn't possibly agree to this."
"Allison," I replied in a soft voice but I really don't want to argue with Allison anymore, especially not because of Rachel. "I really don't want to argue, I don't want us to argue because of Rachel anymore. Rachel still has no idea, but I will tell her."
"Kyle, there's no way we can ever be together because I don't love you." Liar, I thought to myself.
"Allison, everyone could see how unhappy you are, and how unhappy I am with Rachel."
"I'm not unhappy Kyle," Liar. "I'm perfectly fine."
"So you're saying that you haven't missed me one bit since I wasn't at school for awhile?" I asked.
"Yes." She hesitated. Liar I thought to myself once again, I know that she's lying. Why did she hide from me during the musical when I saw her up in the control room? Is it because she missed me but was too embarrassed to face me?
"You're lying because I know you're in love with me."
"Kyle, don't just assume things."
"I'm not Allison, I'm not." I paused. "I know you're in love with me."
"Kyle, I'm not. I really don't lov-" I quickly placed a hand onto her cold cheeks while my other hand remained on holding Allison's hand tightly and I pulled her into me and gave her a kiss on the lips. I don't want to hear her say that she doesn't love me when I know she does. I don't want her to say things that she doesn't mean, I don't want her to hurt anymore. I believe that she does and I just want to confirm it. My heart raced as I deepened the kiss, this is the feeling that I longed for, I longed for this moment for so long, the moment when I kiss Allison on the lips once again. I pulled back after awhile and I stared directly into her eyes, her eyes were soft yet it seemed relaxed and at ease but neither of us said anything. I just absorbed this moment in and I was cherishing it.
"You're a liar." I said in a soft voice after several minutes of silence between us. "You are in love with me."
"Kyle. I don't, I real-"
"If you love me, you'll let me kiss you again." I interrupted her again because I didn't want to hear her lies anymore. I pulled her into another kiss before she could say anything else and I deepened the kiss once again. I waited for her to push me away, I waited for her to resist but I didn't get any of it. She is in love with me, even her body is telling me that she is. She can't lie to herself anymore, her heart and body knows that she's in love with me, that is why she isn't resisting. I pulled back as soon as I figured it out and I rested my forehead on hers and our noses were touching. "You made us go through so much pain, yet you still can't say you love me." I whispered.
"What is this?!" I heard someone yelling, Rachel's voice. Shit, I thought immediately and I looked over at the direction of the sound and I saw Rachel storming over. I knew it, she wasn't feeling well, her face says it all. Behind Rachel I saw Tracy and Kelly racing over towards us as well, I guess Rachel got free from them.
"Rachel." I started and Rachel was now standing in front of me.
"Kyle, explain what's going on?! Why are you here with her? You're supposed to be here with me!" I let Allison's hand go and I focused my attention towards Rachel, I didn't want to tell her this now but I have to. I wanted to do this in a nicer way and of course, in a different setting. I sighed and I stared at Rachel who was on the verge of crying, I feel like an asshole for doing this to her right now.
"Rachel, we need to talk." I slowly approached her and I reached out for her hands.
"No! No we don't!" She slowly backed up and whacked away my hand. "I don't want to listen to it, I don't want to hear it Kyle!" She screamed and she placed both of her hands over her ears and continued to back up.
"Rachel, calm down." Shit, this isn't going how I want it to go. She needs to calm down right now, I don't want her to faint again. "Relax, you're already not feeling well so please calm down." I instructed but she didn't listen and soon the tears started to flow out of her eyes.
"Kyle, I don't want to hear it." She muttered. "I don't want you to say you want to break the engagement off. I heard everything, everything you talked to my Dad about, Kyle I don't want to!" She continued to back up. So this was it, no where I felt her smile a little bit stranger earlier in the evening when I was over at her house.
"Rachel, calm down!" I exclaimed and I quickly reached my hand out to grab her but she quickly whacked it away.
"No! Let go of me Kyle! Leave me alone!" She cried and then she suddenly turned and bolted towards the streets.
"Rachel!" I called after her and I started to chase her. Right now, Allison isn't my priority and I never imagined myself to say this but I did. Rachel needs me right now and I should be there for her, I need to explain everything, I need her to understand. My eyes were fixated on Rachel's back and she was quickly approaching the streets, where is she trying to run off to? "Rachel!" I shouted after her, hoping that she would stop but she ignored me and kept running. Suddenly, my heart felt like it stopped when I saw a car just making a left turn and I was in arm's reach of Rachel who just took a step off the curb and onto the road. Shit, I thought and my adrenaline rushed through my body and I sped up as quickly as I could. "Rachel, watch out!" I cried out to her and then she stopped, like a deer in heads light in front of the car. Shit, I used up the last bit of energy and I leaped towards Rachel, pushing her away as hard as I could push and she was finally out of harm way. Thank god, I thought and then my mind has finally calmed down but before I knew it, the headlights from the car approaching blinded me, shit I'm not out of danger yet I thought and I closed my eyes as I leaped as fast as I could towards Rachel. Suddenly everything became black and I heard the screeching of the car tires as well as shuttering glasses. The next thing I felt was pain, pain all over the left side of my body. I wanted to scream but I had no voice and I couldn't see anything as everything was black around me. Then I felt myself lying on something cold and then everything was numbed, what is it? What is this feeling? I felt myself getting tired and losing consciousness, and I going to die now?
"Kyle!" I heard a voice, who's voice is this? "Kyle!" I heard it again, Allison? This is Allison's voice. I tried to speak but nothing was coming out, why? Where is my voice? "Call the ambulance right now!" I heard her voice again. "Kyle!" She cried out, screaming at the top of her lungs. I want to move my body but I can't, why can't I? Where is Allison? She's crying and I don't like it but I could feel it, her voice was getting softer and softer. "Kyle, I love you! Please-" And then everything was black and empty, is this a dream?
A/N: Hooray! So here's the chapter for the accident scene! This is also the longest chapter of Kyle's POV and it is a very sad chapter :(. Well I guess all that's really left in Kyle's POV that you all really want to know is:
1) The talk Kyle and Rachel had.
2) The talk Kyle and Jack had.
3) Kyle's plan to help for Allison's family.
So these are probably the only things that I would really put extra details in because these are parts where you guys didn't read about during Allison's POV.
Anyways, as always thank you all for the support and I hate to say it but this story is seriously about to finish and that's it! I was thinking about writing a sequel for this story but I don't know what I could possibly write about the two now. Maybe when I think about something I would but currently, don't expect a sequel! However I don't know if I would continue Life Isn't Easy because I have serious writer's block for that story and I don't know how to proceed with it. Maybe I will start a new story, who knows! But either way thanks again and happy reading!
Sky8677: You will always be this story's number one fan! You are awesome! Hurry up with getting your laptop fixed! I can't wait to read your story. There are times that I rather read instead of write so I need something to read! And of course I will always appreciate your support for my stories!
euluvhaters: I know that there isn't much actions in Kyle's POV since you all know what happened in the story, but I try to put more details into parts where you don't get to see in Allison's POV. Probably didn't do a great job, but I appreciate the support you've given me throughout the story! But I hope you enjoy this chapter a lot more than the last.
Jenna: Haha thank you :P I am old that I don't even want to disclose it. Talking like this is also nice and we can still get to know each other like this! Of course thank you as well for your support and hope you enjoy this chapter.