PROLOGUE

My love left me to go to battle. He led warriors from two elven realms to Helms Deep to honor the old alliance. He left me alone and pregnant, even knowing I saw his death. To be fair, he didn't want to leave us but...his duty came first with him; he was the March Warden of the Golden Wood and he was mine. We couldn't tolerate one another at the beginning, then things began to change and became complicated. I learned how to trust again. My curse, as I called it, was thought a gift by the elves. I was wary of them; I hadn't heard anything good about them BUT they accepted me, gave me a home. They saved my life–literally. Indiell was the first true friend I ever had in my whole 23 years, besides my family of course but they are all dead now because of me. Haldir taught me how love between a male and female was really suppose to be. I had never known that kind of love. Of course, I knew what happens between a man and woman; I had been raped enough for years. The love of my life was arrogant, insufferable yet loving, loyal and oh now my husband. I was angry at him for leaving me and I told him so. His death haunted me.

I also found out about my true parentage; the family I had ever known wasn't my real family but I still loved them and them me. I also found out that I'm not wholly human–yeah, I know right. The spirit of my mother, my real one, helped me save my love–though he was still seriously hurt. They were gone a very long time and a lot had died there at Rohan's fortress.

I wanted Haldir home for the birth of our children, yes children. I was carrying twins and guess what? Everyone knew, everyone except me–oh and Haldir's brother, that was so wrong. They were afraid I couldn't handle it because I didn't want anymore children...yes I said anymore. I was raped and tortured repeatedly for the two years I was held as a captive. I...I had two children from the rapes. My captors tortured me by torturing my firstborn and killed him. I had a daughter that I killed...I know, I know I am a murderess but to be fair I did it out of love for her. I didn't want her to go through what her brother did and I didn't deserve a second chance or these gifts, but, I got them anyway.

Back to my story, because of complications, Lady Galadriel sent for Lord Elrond. He was her son in law, the ruler of Imladris and a renowned healer. He delivered my twins. Haldir missed the birth of our son but he was there for our daughter's. I told him I hated him but I didn't mean it–I was tired and hurting. If anyone tells you birthing a child, let alone two is easy–they are lying...it hurts...A LOT! But, that was the most perfect day of my life; my love came home and our children were born–my life was perfect. Yeah right...only in my dreams!

Amazing what a person's mind will remember when exhausted as well as being deliriously happy