Help Me

Stay down
Help me
Silence
yourself

I can't
Sew it all shut
Speak up
Don't
tell

Help me-
And here you go again with your
nonesense

Someone-
Shush, at once!
Got to-
Not
allowed

Tell my-
No you won't
Story...
Shh, shh,
silence-

Somehow!

Barred within myself
I see the
window
Like a jail room
Prison
Cell
Cage
Whatever you call
it
I'm trapped here
Screaming
Yelling
Pleading
Still no one
hears
Because something silenced me
A year, an eternity, an age ago
All
I want it out
To release from the chains
And
fly...

Drip
Down
Something
You have done
I feel and try to
speak
Something over my mouth
Drip
The needle gleams
I didn't even
feel the pain
Tears unending
Show the sorrow I can't
voice
Drip
Wounds fresh
How to remove
The thread
I'm sewn
shut
Lost in the silence
That I don't want
Drip
I smear away the
red
And search for my escape

Someone help
You know no one
will

Try to understand
They don't and never shall
Not even
the scars are noticed
Who would care about you?
Not good enough for
you!
That was always the plan

My palms, splayed out
My head,
bent down
My tears, coming to a stop
Accepting the fate
That has been
thrown at me
Muscles tense and sorrows bent
Torn away from what I thought
I deserved
I descend into the box they built

Where was the
hope
Once known?
When I needed it all
To save me
From crashing
down?
Abandoned, forgotten
Unloved and beaten
In ways bruises cannot
tell
In ways fading scars display
One story I can no longer tell
No
matter how hard I struggle

I desperately tear at the
stitches
Thread metal blood
The bars blur in my vision
No way
out no way out

It's only in my mind, not really happening
Yet each
sensation deep within
May as well be shown physically
Exhausted and
hopeless
Falling back
Giving up
What is the use-
My
communication
Often misunderstood
Even when I can speak
What is the
point?

All I ask
One thing
Just help me
Before it's too
late
Before I fade
With nothing to return
To this reality