The italics don't belong to me. They're from the song "Nobody Knows" by Kevin Sharp.

How can you be gone?

I don't believe it, even when I know the truth.

My head screams at me to move on, but my heart whispers to never let go.

I can never let go.

I'll be old and grey and I'll still be holding on to you.

"A million years from now you know, I'll be loving you still."

Never did those words hold such meaning until now.

You saved me so many times.

Did you even know?

Do you know how lost I would have been without you?

How lost I am now?

How can I say goodbye?

I'll never be able to let this go.

Never.

I don't know how, and I don't want to find out.

And I don't know what I'll do now.

Because you're gone.