Friendship, I thought.
No question about it.
It wasn't like I couldn't live without it.
Though when you said "Yes, we're friends."
I believed you to the end.
The days passed by and we hung out more and more.
We joked around and at lunch we sat together
In band, when I failed my solo you didn't laugh like all the others.
The first time that is.
The next time though you laughed the hardest.
When I cried because my bird died.
You mocked me and said "It was just a bird."
You didn't understand that he was my best friend.
You didn't stay by my side when I was alone without a friend
Then that fateful day, the day that caused me to wish I had never met you
You told me that we couldn't be friends anymore.
"Why?" I asked though I knew the answer.
You told me and I walked away and refused to speak to you.
Once you were gone I burst into tears.
A year past and I didn't even speak to you once.
Then I ended up having to sit by you at lunch.
I looked at you then pushed my food away.
My friend that had just met you looked at my tray.
"I'm not hungry." I said.
The bell rang and I walked away.
The next weeks were filled with dismay.
I sat by you in class but I had no courage to bring up the year that passed.
I waited a few more weeks then asked.
"We used to be friends, what happened?"
You shrugged and refused to speak to me.
I sighed and thought, my mess oh well.
I give up!
I say now.
I'll never try to speak to you again as friends.
I may know you but we aren't friends you ended it two years ago.
Now, it's your fault that I'm uncomfortable around my friends.
Your fault that I feel like I don't fit in.
Your fault that I bury myself within.
Your fault that every time I remember that year I fill with sadness.
I can wish on every star in the sky.
But I can't go back to that day and change it.
Your fault I'll say.
But was it rally yours?
Or was it just meant to be?
Meant to be a friendship lost in a sea of sadness.
A/N: This event happened a few years ago up until this year I didn't even bother to say anything about it but I needed to get it off my chest.